What is holding you back?


One quick fix to FREEDOM – start by letting go of the stress, worry, beating up on yourself for procrastination, not doing enough, doing it “wrong”…

Step back and look – can you see it is really just you taking on OTHERS EXPECTATIONS that have been projected upon you?

How are you LIMITING yourself by putting on another’s shackles?

What are the UNDERLYING commitments and agreements you’ve subconsciously and subliminally agreed to?

And you know what is BEYOND all of this? What is really holding you back??


– pain of the judgment you’re afraid others will project on you
– pain of not fitting in / being abandoned
– pain of feeling what others will feel when you’re living happy, free, empowered, abundant, and showing up awesome wherever you are

The funny thing about this –



Opening to Possibilities…

… even in the difficult circumstances.

Are you feeling stuck in a painful situation?

  • A relationship?
  • A job?
  • A family dynamic that you can’t break free from?

Take this short break (click for video) with me as I invite you to be playful, to daydream and to have fun while you embrace your own freedom and open your minds to new possibilities. 

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I will invite, inspire and even challenge you to recognize and seek other options available to you – especially in the more difficult situations.

Although many of us have learned since we were young to maneuver through these difficult situations, traumas or dysfunctions; it’s important to know that we have the power to choose something different.

Making new decisions might feel scary, but I will teach you how to train your brains to think about the possibilities instead of the pitfalls.  I will show how our thoughts and beliefs can form our realities. 

If you can begin to think about all the beautiful possibilities that live beyond this difficult situation – you can actually create them. You can live in a new reality. 

It takes a lot of courage to make your own decisions about life instead of letting life make the decisions for you.  #LiveinPossibilitiesNotinCircumstances  



Moving Through Energy Shifts, Expansions and Downloads

We just went through another big expansion and shift in energy.  Did you feel it?  What have you noticed?

We are in really powerful times and my intention is to guide you to using the energy to your highest advantage. 

Everyone is going through shifts and feeling the energy on some level.  There are different experiences and phases of the expansion.

What happens and how long it last is about what you do with what pops into your experience. 

For me, I felt a palpable shift – One day I woke up and everything felt different. #quantumleaps.  The world even looked different.

That morning – and since – has had the energy and essence of New Years Day.  You know – new beginnings, fresh starts, blank slate, fulfilled…

There is a whole other level of inner openness I feel.  I know it is a direct result of the inner work I have personally been doing as well as the energy that has been unleashed from running this last group – Mastery of YOU (no worries if you missed it – another group program is formulating now).  

It is surreal.  

I am also very much intrigued by



What Does “Be the Change You Wish to See” mean?

Join me on my hike for some soul nourishment and replenishment as I share my radical thoughts on how we can each take responsibility for changing the world. 

In this video, I will guide you to gently look at your own feelings with curiosity and investigate how you can make changes for yourself. 

Mahatma Ghandi said “Be the change you wish to see in the world.” 

What does that mean? 

How can I have any impact on the world when there is so much violence and so many mass shootings and senseless murders?! 

How can I make a difference to all the fear and anger in the world?

A common reaction is to become angry and frustrated and start pointing fingers at who is to blame for what is happening in the world.  People are through with sending thoughts and prayers and are demanding that we affect actual change!

My radical suggestion is that we can affect actual change by looking inward and changing what is going inside of us.

Our thoughts and feelings are energy and we are always projecting them into the world. When we are angry and blaming and fearful and judgmental, we are sending those ‘energy rockets’ into the world. 

Let’s look at these feelings and transmute them into something positive. Just like the butterfly can flap her wings and cause a tsunami, let’s intentionally be a tsunami of Love and Joy and Play, and send that wave out into the world!

If you are feeling angry, ask yourself:

  • How am I contributing to the anger in the world?
  • Who am I angry at?
  • My boss?
  • My neighbor?
  • My family?
  • Myself?
  • If you are feeling judgmental, look deeper:
  • How am I being judgmental in my own life?
  • Who do I judge when I’m walking by them?
  • How can I transform my inner judgment?
  • If you are feeling afraid, ask:
  • How can I transmute my fear?
  • What am I afraid of in my own life?
  • Putting myself out there?
  • Being in a relationship?
  • Being happy?
  • What will other people think of me?

I encourage you to experiment with how you can embrace your own feelings, and recognize how you are the expression of that in the world.  Begin to accept, with love, all of these parts of yourself and feel how your energy changes. 

When you deny your feelings, stuff them down, and point fingers at others, you are unwittingly projecting the anger and fear into the world.

Martin Luther King, Jr told us that “Darkness cannot drive out darkness.  Only light can do that.” 

You have the power to be the light that the world needs, simply by changing what is happening inside of yourself! 

Take responsibility for your own feelings, and your reactions and what you decide to do with them.  Accept all of the parts of you. It is empowering to be 100% responsible for ourselves; we give away our power when we blame and judge people.

I believe the reason we are here is to transmute these feelings that arise within and integrate the energies that move through us into LOVE.  And to guide each other home and to remind each other that we are all LOVE.

Please join me, with Love.

Be the change you wish to see in the world.


Are Past Pains Holding You Back?

Are you working hard but find you just can’t move forward in your life?

Do you have desires in your heart that you just can’t make happen?

Are you experiencing fear, anxiety or overwhelm for no particular reason?

Perhaps you are being held back by what I refer to as Past Pains.

As an Intuitive Healing Guide and I work with the Energetic Field.  I help, those who are truly ready for transformation, get to the core of what’s holding them back from their best self.  We go beyond the ego and protective mechanisms that may be in the way.

My intention in this video is to help you understand how to identify your Past Pains and liberate yourself. We are meant to have the lives our hearts desire – we are the only ones holding ourselves back.

Past Pains are different than buried beliefs or unconscious contracts and can be harder to identify because they become part of who we are, how we show up in the world, and how we see the world.

Difficult experiences or traumas in your childhood create an operating mechanism in your body and define how you move through life.  Your ancestral line carries some of these operating mechanisms and affects family dynamics.

These Past Pains form a root system for how you manage and understand everything in your lives and a lens for how we see the world; Love, Money, Health, Career, Relationships.

If you remain unaware of the Past Pains, you may find yourself stuck no matter how hard you work towards your goals.  Allowing those Past Pains to run your subconscious, you also keep yourself from owning and claiming the innate power you have to create the life you want.

Here are some examples of how these Past Pains may be showing up in your life.

  • If your needs were not met as a child because of abuse or neglect, you may have formed an operating mechanism that won’t allow you to ever feel the pain of being denied your needs again, which can drastically affect your relationships. 
  • If you witnessed family fights, or bad things being done with money, you may have cut yourself off from ever having to face those struggles by not allowing money in your life. 
  • Your creativity may have been stunted at a young age because you were made fun of or made to feel vulnerable in front of the class. 

The outer expression of these past pains will always limit you and may look like:

  • A lack of confidence
  • Never having enough money
  • Bad relationships
  • Playing small or hiding out
  • Denying ourselves what we want
  • Worrying about what other people think

You have the power to release these Past Pains and shift into a different experience.

Life is FOR you and you can step into more of what you WANT to experience.  If your heart desires more, then more is possible for you!

The road can feel a bit bumpy because as you release your inner limitations, you attract similar experiences that will help you look closer at these Past Pains so you can release, dissolve or transmute them. 

As you become more aware and open up to the presence of the Past Pains within you, the part of you that wants to protect you will start telling you stories.  Do not believe these stories, but pay attention to them for clues about what is holding you back. 

Your stories may tell you:

  • You’re not good enough
  • You’re not smart enough
  • You have to lose more weight before you can realize your dreams
  • You can’t do it because no one else has been able to do it
  • You might be annihilated if you try and fail.

As you identify and transmute these Past Pains you will liberate yourself and experience a new freedom! 

You will get in tune with your innate gifts and your power to co-create and manifest the life you want. 

Synchronicities will start happening as your mind opens to new possibilities.

You will feel a lightness and openness in your body as you face no limitation.

You will find that so much more creativity and passion is available to us as you lock into your own purpose in life.

You are the designer and the director of your own life! Allow love into your life; allow money and abundance; allow your desires to become your truth.

It is possible because it is within you.


The Energy of Jealousy

Jealousy is golden! It’s a treasure!

In this quick video I share a streamline of consciousness about jealousy.  You know…when you are looking at someone who has something and you’re feeling envious or jealous because they have this thing or they are having this experience that you don’t have. 

I encourage you to take a look and be honest about what you are seeing in the other person or their experience – be honest about what it is that you want.

The truth is there is a part of you that knows that you can have whatever you are seeing that other person has and you are denying yourself of it!

It’s not about the other person at all.

It’s a signal for you to look inside. 

You can absolutely have that experience, that money, that relationship, that vacation..whatever it is you are seeing another have that you want.

In fact – because you are witnessing it, it is even closer to you.

Empower yourself and alchemize the energy.

Go inside and investigate the belief structures that are preventing you from having what you want.  There may be aspects of you that are holding you back because you want to be liked or you want to be the ‘good girl’ or good boy’. There might be patterns playing out the belief systems that hold you back.  You may subconsciously committed to not outgrow anyone that you are close to. So you hold yourself back!.

Jealousy energy is showing you that you want something you are denying yourself. 

Go after it! 

Go get it! 

Let go of the stories that say you are not good enough and you can never have it. 

Own it! 

Claim it! 

This it your life – go get what you want!

P.S. If you want to tap even deeper into your energy and manifestation vibration, you can get your Expansion and Attraction meditation here.


What are you fighting FOR?

This bears repeating, so pay effing attention.

I Will Not Fight For Your Limitations.

You want to chat, jam out, discuss possibilities, opportunities, and creating sh!t out of thin air – then we’ve got something to talk about.

You know there is something more within you and you’re ready to unveil it, lets talk.

You know you’re ready to move forward, be seen, and stop playing small, lets talk.

You know you have gifts, talents, and magic within and ready to explore more deeply, integrate it, and share YOU with the world, lets talk.

I will lock arms with you, forge ahead, and fight for your fullest, most authentic expression of you and your life.

But, to sink to the bottom of the ocean and hold the anchor down and waste any oxygen on why you can’t – I am not available or interested.

And neither should you.


What are you missing out on?


Hey! Yeah, you – the one with all the magic, gifts, and talents inside.. You’ve been flying under the radar, hiding out.

Heads up – You are not going to be able to do that for much longer.  

I bet you even feel it – the ache, the urge, the deep desire that there is more.  There is more of what you have to share.  You feel the energy of it but you hold back or are held back.

Well, listen – I am SUPER PUMPED to be downloading this next group program. The title that initially came through – Remember Your Magic – is bouncing around and my mind is telling me its too ‘woo woo’.

And just now I said, out loud to myself – “Whatever!”  Seriously, who is meant to come on this journey with me will FEEL the words, the energy, the intention that I am sharing.  Me mussing about the title is just a distraction from me sharing this.  

WHO am I to get in the way of what is coming through??

What about you?  Ever find yourself holding back because of the stories that pop up in your mind or the beliefs, doubts and fears that rise up?

You know you’re meant to be showing up more but, you just can’t seem to get past or move forward?

What I am talking about here is serious business! – because, it is not just about you.  It is about who you are meant to be serving, touching, exchanging, leading, healing, transforming, empowering, guiding.…


I get it – It can feel super fucking scary.  You know why?  Because you’ve been doing this work for lifetimes.  LIFETIMES.  Who you were and what you did – it wasn’t so easy, acceptable, or supported in the past.

You might have even died over following your passion and doing your mission.

Perhaps you haven’t felt a ton of support in this lifetime. Yeah?

Maybe you’ve been the odd one of your family.

Maybe you feel you just don’t quite fit in.

You’ve been hurt by others.

Maybe as you’re expanding into more of you and your life is changing…

It has all been intentional.

To keep you quiet.
To keep you small.
To prevent you from empowering and enlightening others.
To keep you from having the profound impact you know SO DEEPLY IN YOUR HEART that is what you are here for.


But, you’re stuck.
It all feels hard and overwhelming.
You get in your own way.
You stop yourself.
You dim and hide your gifts.
You doubt yourself.
The fear feels like too much.

Yet, here is the thing… The inner nudge can no longer be ignored.  In fact, your body is likely giving you  signals.

Life is guiding you to show up more.

You touch peoples lives in just being who you are – in your home and through the way you move about the world.  You have an impact.

You share with small groups. Allow selected FEW know who you really are and what your talent is.

But, you have MORE of you to share – a FULLER way of showing up.  No more hiding out or hovering below the radar.  It is time for you…

I get it – I was there too. Life kept reflecting back to me, nudging me, guiding me to get out of my own way.  To OWN my truth, my gifts and surrendering to the energies ready to express through me.

Not living my full, authentic self made things hard, feel overwhelming – like I was being squished, held back, too hard to move forward.  My body slowed me down so that I could only be fully present to what was.  My mind made stories and created drama to distract me from my path.

I fought back because the alternative was not an option.

What other option do you have? (there really isn’t one – you and I both know it).

I see what was happening and I am here to share with you a way through. To bring you through the process of reclaiming your essence.  And setting parts of you free from the inner limitations, patterns and cycles.

No more hiding. No more hovering.

You have an impact that ripples out to others – a family unit, clients, the world.

You’ve needed to create survival mechanisms to get this far.  But, you don’t need them any more.

You’ll be letting go of those too. 

Now it is time to remember and reclaim.

When you do…

Life flows much smoother, the support shows up, you’re naturally in your element, you feel on purpose… You are doing YOU in your own way.

Isn’t is time –

  • To get out of your own way and get on your purpose
  • To reclaim and set free the aspects of yourself holding the fears in place
  • To share more of your gifts and who you are
  • To spread your magic through words, work, love, presence, being, healing, creating, sharing
  • To live authentically, fully expressive and freely YOU.


  • The two week group program is held inside a secret Facebook group – link to be sent once registered.
  • There will be energetic transmissions, live streams, and posts all supporting, guiding, lightening the way for you to OWN it and SHINE through.
  • We begin 11/11/17 and finish up 11/25/17.
  • I feel the energy of it all…. Those of you who have been hiding out and hovering under the radar – I’ve got you!  Come on out.  Let’s play!

What is all this discomfort about?

What is happening?

Energetic Upgrades

You are:

  • Expanding consciousness
  • Allowing more of your true self through
  • You’re tired of hiding out, playing small, pretending

Those who are feeling this here and now are an integral piece of the collective expansion.

You feel it inside, you can’t hold it back

When you do hold back, you suffer, feel pain.

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For too long, a large piece of our essence has been split off outside of you.  It is time to RECLAIM it!

As the upgrade comes through, you are integrating grander parts of yourself.

The parts splintered off and that you gave away.

Pulling these pieces back feels like installing a V8 Engine into a matchbox.

Your body feels the higher vibration coming in and it begins to adjust.

Your mind doesn’t know what is going on (I’m telling you now) and it starts to freak out
– anxiety
– overwhelm
– fear

When you don’t know what to do with the energy:
* you numb
* avoid
* distract
* find the nearest comfort
* You try to expel it – pick fights, create drama, create chaos

I am not saying anyway you handle what you are feeling is ‘wrong’.  Yet! this energy is here FOR you and can be used to empower, uplevel, and expand yourself and your life.

The best way to integrate these energies:

  • Breathe – this lets your body know you’re not in fight/flight/survival mode
  • Do not create stories about what is happening.
  • You may need stillness or activity or both – listen to your body.
  • Do not react, allow.

You’ve been asking for more – Your operating system needs the program and resources to make it happen.

The other piece to this – all that is not aligned with the higher vibration and energy download will also rise to the surface.
* past pains
* fears
* buried beliefs
* insecurities
* self doubt

All that rises needs to be dealt with or you’ll bring yourself right back to your comfort zone (which really isn’t so comfortable any more).

You know it – You are meant for more.  Growth is part of the process. Suffering doesn’t have to be.

Does this help?  Drop a comment or write me a note or lets connect socially.


Do not let this stop you

Yes, it’s true…

You are going to piss people off, trigger them, and lose relationships because of who you are.

Do not let that stop you from fully showing up as you – in your happiness, richness, freedom, big laugh, fun personality, expressive self, talent, art, whatever the F….

It is not about you – it is about them.

What is about YOU – dimming your frigin self. Stop it. Just stop.

Shine, show up, speak up, be you…. It is what the world needs right now.


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