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Another Level of Integration

Are you feeling ok? Have any emotions bubbling up? Is your body speaking to you?
As I tune into the collective energy I see many going through an experience I’d call an “adjustment“.
Kind of like going to a chiropractor. Some are pretty fierce; others are gentle but powerful.
A huge part of you feeling ready for the change and to be through with all this chaos, static, stuckness, lack of clarity, fear, emotions…
To align, you will need to move through and from where you are now and likely to a place you’ve never been. The scary unknown! 
Your mind going cray trying to figure things out.

Now is a time of your body’s integration with your soul.

With that, all the old fears, protection patterns, and smallness behaviors are rising to the surface.
This is the something old that must go to make room for the new.
This is all a part of the process. Do your best to not go back!
Comfort zone is not that cozy any more. Am I right?!
In this transition energy it may feel like a parasite is leaving or a baby’s birth that is lonnnng over due.
You feeling me?
The “parasite” being beliefs, patterns, memories, ego attachments, smallness.
The baby being your art, program, voice, expression, heart.
If there is discomfort it could be a part ready to go but, still holding on.
The depth of feeling could feel like grief / a death of something. Part of you might subconsciously hold on and keep what is happening from happening.
I’m here to remind you what’s shifting is something you are ready for.
These are the times to
– dig in,
– remember who you are,
– laser focus in your vision and desires,
– trust yourself,
– have faith in the process,
– surrender to how it unfolds.
Breathe too. Yeah. That’s important.
Does this resonate for you? How is it going for you?

Three simple keys to manifesting and how to get out of your own way

First thing I want to remind you is – you are more powerful than you have been taught.  You are always participating in the manifestation of your experiences.

:: If you are experiencing something that does not feel good, it is guidance to look within yourself – something is not aligned with what is really true for you.

:: If you feel like everything is hard and you are suffering – you just might be resisting the very thing you are wanting to come into your life.

Here are three simple keys to manifesting and how to identify if you’re in your own way.

1. Get clear on your desires. What is is that you really want to experience?

Beliefs that keep clarity from arising:

  • I’m not worthy
  • I don’t’ deserve it
  • I can’t have it or be it
  • What price will I have to pay?
  • I will be abandoned
  • I can’t do better or have more than my family

2. Feel what it feels like to already be in the desired experience.

What keeps you from aligning to the vibrations:

  • Energetic walls – the belief systems you have carry energy
  • Distractions, chaos, drama
  • Focus and attention goes to the change happening outside of you
  • Inner programs of fear, patterns of protection within divert the energy
  • Subconscious programing to keep you inside patterns from family unit, society, ancestry, past lives

3. Let it go

Why it is a challenge to let go, trust, surrender, and allow:

  • The need to control all conditions
  • Fear of losing control to the changes in life
  • Determined it can only happen a specific way or not being open to other possibilities
  • Having a stronger belief in the impossibility of it

Some additional questions to ask yourself:

:: Are subconscious fears and buried beliefs the things manifesting my experience?

:: Do I have energetic blocks or programs running that keep me from what I really want?

:: Am I able to have faith, to trust, and to surrender – unconditionally?

:: Is there an underlying need for me to control everything?

You do not have a desire for something without the possibility of having it also existing.

It is about you choosing –

  • choosing your desires,
  • choosing yourself,
  • choosing what it takes to align,
  • choosing to let go,
  • choosing to allow,
  • choosing radical self love…

Not choosing is choosing.  You have more power than you’ve been taught.  Use it consciously and watch what happens in  your life.


Kelly Ann


February 2018 Full Moon

As the full moon approaches, all that is ready to be illuminated and set feee from darkness arises.
It takes compassion and courage to see and be with what was once tucked away as a form of protection and survival.

As these parts rise from within, welcome them as you would a long, lost friend who has been seeking to be seen, heard, understood.

To tuck them back down would be to perpetuate the false beliefs that sprung them into existence.
The truth is these are the pieces you seek for outside of yourself.
You have them.
You’re integration of them and freeing them from their duties brings the wholeness and fulfillment you desire.
It’s within you.
Light it up.
Shine on.
Unleash you.
You are the medicine.

Are you going through some big changes?

This article and video links inside may help.

You are more than who you’ve known yourself to be.
More of you is integrating.
This can push the core fears, buried beliefs, painful patterns to the surface.
You’re being led to align with a greater vibration than you’ve yet to experience.
It may cause some chaos.
The video brings you through what to be aware of so you can come out on top and CLAIM what you’ve called forth (and what this is all about anyway!) rather than falling into old comfort patterns.

Are you going through a Spiritual Awakening?

Do you feel like you’re going crazy?

Is your body feeling all sorts of pain and brokenness?

Are your emotions all over the place?

Life seem to be falling apart?

Oh! I totally get it.  I have been there.  And, had I known then what I know now, my suffering and hard times would not have been so challenging for so long.

If you’re going through some big changes and challenges, seemingly out of nowhere, you’re likely going through a Spiritual Awakening.

What does that mean?

The way I see it is your human self and your Soul are merging.  Your Soul being an energy – a grander part of you, the essence of who you are merging more deeply into your human experience.

You’re becoming more embodied with the essence of all of who you are.  The essence of you that holds no stories, fears, lack, limitation.  The essence of you that is unconditional love, brilliance, talent, pureness.

As your Soul merges, the buried beliefs, subconscious cycles, painful patterns rise up to be released.  They are not a match or in resonance with the pureness of your Souls energetic imprint.

Everything you took on is being burnt off – ancestral patterns, societal beliefs, life experience limitations. 

More of you coming through to be expressed.  The more that you’ve been calling forth.  The more you’ve asked to experience. 

The keys to moving through a Spiritual Awakening are:

  • Intention
  • Trust
  • Faith
  • Surrender
  • Empowerment

Watch this video for guidance to move through these swift shifts and what to be aware of that may stop you from moving through with ease and grace.

Do you want support through your journey?  Are you ready to invest time, attention, and energy into yourself?

You are not meant to struggle through this process.

If you’re going through some change and are ready to:

  • tap more deeply into yourself to know your guidance,
  • to trust what you are hearing,
  • to have faith in the leaps your being guided to,
  • and ready to surrender to the process

I have several programs available that are custom designed for your unique process and path.

If you’re really ready – because there is no more time to be hiding out and playing small…. BEGIN HERE and apply for a call where we’ll talk about where you are on your path and how my energy, emotional, and spiritual healing processes will support your growth and evolution. 

In case it is not clear…

My programs are for those who know much of what I shared above is part of the process but no longer want to get pulled down by emotions, tossed about by chaos and drama, stuck in their smallness, and being held back by their fears. 

My programs are for those who want to live in Faith, Trust, Surrender, and in their Power.  For those who are ready for the ride of their life and know they are the driver of the car. 


Does this happen to you when you go through shifts and upgrades? 

When you’re receiving heavy duty downloads and upgrades, many shifts in your life can occur.    

It can look like:

  • People triggers – you triggering them, them triggering you.
  • Relationship challenges.
  • Old wounds rising up.
  • Fear patterns playing out.
  • Buried beliefs being mirrored back in real time.
  • Self imposed limitations becoming tighter than those jeans you wore back in high school.

How I roll through the shifts…

I listen to my body and what it needs.  Beyond the “why” this is happening,  I trust my body and Soul know what it needs and will guide me.  The trick is surrendering to it. 

Being vs. doing.   

It is not always easy for me to be still.  But, if I don’t listen, all other chaos unfolds.  I trust the process.  My Soul was calling.

So, all day Saturday I was in my PJ’s (until I got dressed Sunday afternoon)  I moved from one couch to the other – writing, meditating, reading, integrating energies, allowing my body to receive and stretch into this next version. 

Later, I cried through three hours of This is Us. 

It was totally intentional to watch back to back episodes of that brilliant show to support myself in moving energy through me. 

Tears felt so cathartic.  No stories.  Just allowing the energies to move through with the tears.

When that was complete, I rose from the couch feeling lighter – emotionally and physically

On Sunday I started slow, feeling the integration still in process.  Then the movement came – one of my favorite ways to move energy.  DANCE.

I danced through my living room and kitchen sporadically throwing in some yoga stretches and squats with arm presses.  For real – “Dance like no one is watching.”   

It felt good to BE in this body – taller, stronger, more integrated. 

While there are some outer things in my experience spinning out due to this shift, I keep focused on my power and stance. 

I know what is happening is burn off.  

:: Embers dying out from the fire I set aflame to what is not working for me and what no longer resonates. 

:: Old vibrations. 

:: Old patterns.

:: Old beliefs.  

The manifestation of what I’ve elevated from now spinning out and dying off. 

I witnessed my mind and ego struggle with the stories around what is happening and wanting it to be a different experience. 

But, it is what it is. It is all FOR ME and my highest good.

When we:

  • try to grasp on to what is leaving,
  • comfort or support the other person in the experience,
  • attempt to stop the unraveling,
  • change our beliefs and desires in hopes of rewinding what is already unfolding…

…we only cause more funk for ourselves.

Surrender is key.  Because I asked for more.  And transition and change are bound to occur. 

So, it may mean letting go of 

// being seen as the “good girl”. 

// worrying about other peoples reactions.

// holding back what I really want.

// allowing others or circumstances to define how I feel.

// fears that are causing more pain than to move through them.

Can you relate to any of that?

This is where many get off path, detoured, give up, quit, go back the comfort zone that isn’t really that comfortable anyway. 

As I remain and keep focusing on my power, intention, and desire, my inner GPS will keep guiding me in the direction of my highest and best. 

I know in order to receive and align with what I want, I must stay grounded in my knowing and allow the rest to fade in the dust. 

Its all an illusion anyway.  

But, the funny thing is… While all this is happening, life can feel a bit lost.  That illusion more “reality”. 

It is like this… I am directing the play and I don’t necessarily know what scene is next.  (Trust)

And I know I am the director!  (Faith)

I know it all will manifest from within. I know I’ve called forth a new scene. (Power)

I know change is a piece of the experience.  I know those and what is spinning out is part of the process.  (Surrender)

It is in these times of faith, trust, and surrender, I remain in my power – standing in the eye of the storm. 

Not grasping on to anything. 

Knowing all will settle as I’ve focused on. 

And… What led me to start this blog was…

Today, I drove to my regular Monday morning yoga class and came upon a completely empty lot.

I panicked – “Is it Monday?  Is this the right building? What time is it?

Have I shifted THAT much? LOL 

I left and went to the grocery store. I struck up a conversation with the woman smoking outside her car parked next to mine – Subtly seeking grounding and confirmation I haven’t lost my mind, confirming what day it was, what town I’m in….

And she said this as she stared and pointed up to the cloud filled sky…

“The sun is up there somewhere.”  

It is that simple.

In the midst of change, upgrades, shifting, and upleveling – keep it simple.

Ground in, stay focused, remain in your power, have faith, trust, and surrender to the process.

Simpler said than done, I know. Quit profound if you allow.

You are meant for more.

You asked for this.

Allow the process – don’t get caught up in it and don’t make it who you are.


Kelly Ann

P.S.  If you’re going through some change and are ready to tap more deeply into yourself to know your guidance, to trust what you are hearing, to have faith in the leaps your being guided to, and ready to surrender to the process – I have a program just for you (this one, I have 5 spaces available).

There are several programs to choose from. 

My programs are for those who know much of what I shared above is part of the process but no longer want to get pulled down by emotions, tossed about by chaos and drama, stuck in their smallness, and being held back by their fears. 

My programs are for those who want to live in Faith, Trust, Surrender, and in their Power.  For those who are ready for the ride of their life and know they are the driver of the car. 

Ready to drive? —>  Choose your ride.


When change happens

Are you going through a CHANGE?  I recently posted about the theme of this energy being:

‘What do I need to RELEASE or let go of in order to allow what I’ve been asking for?”

And with that process comes change.  Right?

Change can stir things up and it is uncomfortable.  One of the biggest reasons people remain stuck and still.  Not wanting to feel the discomfort of change.

I know safety, security, and knowing what is going to happen feels better for the ego and personality.  But… Remember – You’ve asked for more and better!

Heres the deal… The stirring up is an indicator of not being in alignment with what you want and what wants to come through you.  Change is guiding you to get really clear and claim what you want and who you want to be.

When you avoid doing the thing you know you need to do in order to get what you want (change required) – life may make the changes for you.

Sometimes the change is gradual, other times you had been receiving nudges hinting to you about decisions and choices you need to make, and then other times sometimes change comes super fast and seemingly out of no where.

Where you get stuck is looking at the person or event playing out the change with you and prevent the flow of change energy from moving through. 

This manifests as all kinds of drama and chaos.

If you can take a step back and see where life is leading you, what that decision and next step really means, and that all of it is FOR YOU – the process of change happens with more flow and ease.

I know – easier said than done.  Yet, this is true empowerment.

Know that your Soul is guiding you… Don’t allow your ego or personality to get in the way… Surrender. Have Faith and Trust exactly what is happening is bringing you to what is most aligned for your highest and best good.


What do you need to let go of …

…in order for what you’ve been asking for to come through to you?

In this video, I share about what Energy is, what Shifts feel like, what is happening now in Relationships, how Anxiousness is showing up, and the necessity of Soul Nourishment.

I also provided mini Intuitive Readings to those who were on live.  Watch the entire video – You’ll likely receive clarity and guidance from what came through for the others.

It is important for you to know MORE wants to come through you and YOU are the one who has the capacity to allow it to happen.

The current theme and guidance is “What are you holding on to?”

You cannot continue doing what you’ve always done and expect different results.

The desires you’ve called forth are also asking you to step up and into the truth of who you are.

Holding on and resisting the changes is what causes the difficulties and challenges – more than following through with where you’re being guided.

I pinky swear!  It is more challenging to remain as is than to surrender to what is ready to be released.

And, I know some of this energy and life experiences are calling forth a brave, courageous look within yourself.  The nudges are bringing you to truly be standing up for you and what you desire.  This can stir up all the internal things – fears, buried beliefs, past pains, subconscious cycles.

It is time to break the patterns and tap into your natural flow!

If it is in your heart, it is possible.  And not as hard as your smallness and limitations will tell you. (pinky swear, again)

You really don’t have to do this alone.  I am here when you’re ready to have the guidance, support and clarity to take you into the next level.

In my Intuitive Psychic work, I see all the potential possibilities available to you but, I can’t do it for you.

You have to choose YOU first.

In the meantime, be sure to subscribe to my YouTube channel and click the bell icon to receive notifications of the new videos as they roll out.

Kelly Ann


Lastly, I highly encourage you to no longer allow your smallness, limitations and fears to make your decisions that keep you from stepping up and owning your inner power and innate gifts.

Make your choices and decisions from the person you are ready to BE. 

If you’re ready to dive in and make the lasting change your heart desires… There are eight spaces left for a complementary Intuitive Energy Assessment through January 31, 2018.

On the call, I will read your energy and share where the buried beliefs, false fears, and subconscious cycles are holding you back.

I’ll share what I see the best course of action of aligning with your truth looks like, and we’ll see if we’re a good fit to do some transformational work together.


The unknown can feel scary.
To me, remaining the same is even scarier.



Do these subconscious fears keep you from moving forward and…

… living the fullest expression of your life?

In this video (from a Facebook Livestream), I share five subconscious fears and the remedies to create a shift in your experience and support you in moving forward.

Before you decide to watch this or not – be aware of any part of your smallness or inner limitations that does not want you to watch this.

The five fears may not initially resonate with you… allow them to ruminate and see what surfaces.

The way subconscious beliefs work is they have been developed at some point where your mind may have felt it needed to create them to be “safe”.  And so, exploring them will cause your buried fears to rise up and fight to keep these subconscious fears and beliefs in place.

These subconscious fears run deep and effect all areas of your life.  And when you liberate yourself from them – all areas of your life shift and open up.

A shift into freedom and a fuller life experience is available – your smallness will want you to remain inside your comfort zone.  You have to consciously make different choice to create different outcomes for yourself.

These are the five subconscious fear I speak about in this video (along with the remedies).

1. Afraid you’ll lose control

2. Afraid you’ll be made fun of

3. Afraid of what could go wrong

4. Afraid you wont get what you want

5. Afraid you of not being liked.

Again, your mind might not even take these in or tell you that you don’t have these fears.  I encourage you to watch, listen and feel.

The video contains the remedies available for you to create a conscious shift in your experience.


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Mindset and Relationships – You are the Creator

Below I share a personal experience about Relationships, Manifesting and Empowerment. But, first I want to give you some background on what the Current Energies are.

{and I posted another angle to the energies on my page last night – check it. Can you see how it’s playing out for you?}

In the coming days – if not already – you’re going to see your patterns, beliefs and wounds from your past relationships pop up in your current exchanges (not only romantic).

Some examples of your:


– boundaries

– worthiness

– truest desires


– fears…

When you become uncomfortable, the tendency is to try and fix the other person or have expectations of how the other (s) should behave.

Have something outside you change so you can feel better inside….??? Nope!  That keeps you stuck in the subconscious cycles and limiting patterns you are very much trying to break.

What is realllllly going on, in this uncomfortable exchange, is the other person is mirroring back to you something you have within you that you are believing or holding onto and it doesn’t serve who you really are and what you really want.

{read that again}

Your SOUL knows. That is how these exchanges are brought into your life.

The healing and shift in relationships happens within YOU first then the experience shifts.

For me, there was this one particular, profound quantum leap, complete shift in my experience  that proved all I now teach about mindset, energy, manifesting, empowerment, etc.

I had a “story” running through my mind about a relationship I was in. Alllll the things wrong. It is where my mind continually focused – all the wrongness. Creating a precise order to make manifest.

And it did – the way things were playing out were awful.

Until…. I decided to tell a new story.

In this new story, I allowed myself to fantasize about what I REALLY wanted. To imagine, vision, feel my hearts desires.

Because, under the surface – and what was manifest in the relationship – was about me having buried beliefs about what having what I want, love, need, desire… meant.

Fuck! Right? Trying sooooo hard to make things work and then realize I was in the way the entire time. Ahhhh… Ugggh! But, this is how we discover ourselves. #radicalselflove

I discovered I had beliefs along the lines of not deserving, unworthy, unlovable, ashamed for wanting, afraid if I allowed myself to have it then it would go away… And maybe a few other things.

Can you relate?

So, this one day I went into a meditation and let all my inner walls down. I allowed myself feel my desires, to imagine what the ideal exchange would be like, how it would feel to allow all I wanted to feel ….  #unfuckyourmind

And that very day!!, he came home and the scene I had visualized, felt and allowed myself to experience through my whole BEing, played out.

It was one of those mind blowing, alchemical, complete 180 before my eyes manifestations that reminded me of my power and showed me how to create shifts in my life.

It is important to be clear (especially with what this current energy is kicking up) – This had nothing to do with me changing him or having an expectation of his behavior.

It was about Me. My inner story, beliefs and fears. Once cleared and shifted then aligning my vibration, I was able to allow the experience I reallllly wanted.

So, as these experiences and opportunities for healing and growth appear FOR YOU, go inside yourself and ask …

• what is this showing me about me?

• what need do I have that I’m projecting in the other and angry for not fulfilling?

• what do I really want?

• if this “static” was not here, what could really be possible?

You know the saying ….“It’s not you, it’s me.”

You have been calling out for MORE. Life is presenting it to you – Likely not in the way you’d expect.  No one said this would be easy. But, if you’re here, you’ve got this!

* What you see is up to you.

* What you do is up to you.

By the way Love, you cannot get it wrong.

Fiercely CLAIM what you desire and how you want to feel and watch the world match you.


Kelly Ann

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