Entries Tagged as 'Love and Relationships'

10.28.2018

Are you blocking the LOVE you say you desire?


Last night I was in a deep meditation with the intention on healing and gaining clarity. My dad came through. I was being shown how much he loved and cared for me.
 
I felt love come in from him I didn’t even realize I had been holding back.
 
You see, I was part of a package deal when my dad met my mother. In the 70’s it wasn’t hip to be a teen mom. Back then, you might as well be wearing a bell bottom polyester suit with scarlet letters all over it.
 
My dad, a Vietnam veteran, was introduced to my mother by her BFF soon after he returned from the war. I understand he was smitten with her.
 
My mother, not so open to his desires, due to having trauma and abuse in her life, was weary.
 
Some things get passed down until someone decides to heal it.
 
Then there was me. Part of the package deal.
 
He signed on and adopted me when I was under 1 years old.
 
My biological father signed off on me upon learning of my conception. Thankfully. It insured his hands would never land on me.
 

My dad was someone I always felt like I could be myself around.

 
He passed suddenly 2 years ago, August 2016.
 
Because of my internal work, my soul determination, and who I’ve become, I can easily speak to my dad now at anytime. He and I are closer than ever.
 
I feel him watching over me, guiding me, cheering me on. He helped me open my heart.
 
Even last night.
 
You see, the storage in my phone is full. The system says it’s my voice notes storage.
 
Later last evening, I had an “inspired thought” to clear out my phone voice notes.
 
I started at the bottom – titled 2/14/12.
 
I play it. My dad’s voice comes through.

 

“Hi Kel, it’s me. I wish you a Happy Valentines Day. I hope everything is okay. Talk to you later. Have a happy day.”

 
I’m just remembering this as I type… when he connected with me in my meditation earlier, I asked him to send me a sign, to come through to me.
 
Then I let it go.
 
Later on, there he was. His voice and all. Thanks Dad. You.Fucking.Rock.
 
I share to encourage you be fucking determined to dig deep and clear what is in the way of you having what you say you desire. It is worth it.
 
Do not let anything get in the way of allowing in the love from those who love you. No matter where they are.
 
Because, what I know, if you’re holding back from one who loves you, you’re holding back from others who want to love you.
10.18.2018

Relationship Triggers, Mirrors… and what its all for


I did a live transmission on Facebook with my friend Jordan at his space – Heaven on Earth Healing Center – in Southington, Connecticut.  You can watch the replay here or click the picture.

We had a conversation about Triggers, Mirrors, and the opportunities for growth, evolution, and healing life is presenting through them.

We’re in profound energy… Take advantage of the opportunity!

EVENT
If you are in the Connecticut area, I am doing an in-person Full Moon Energy Alchemy & Quantum Healing for Transformation group session on Thursday, October 25th.

Here is the link with all the details for the event in CT.

9.28.2018

You attract what you are

Cultivate and grow the love vibration within yourself and for yourself and you become a vibrational magnet to the matching love vibration from and within others.

9.20.2018

Have you had static in your interactions with others?

Before you get your panties in a bunch, make sure you aren’t responding from a wound, insecurity, projection…

Your response is your responsibility.

The energy making it’s way through will poke at your relationships. You may get a little zap.

Don’t get tangled up in it.

Be aware to not take things personally.

It may be a simple shift in perception to clear the static.

It starts with you.

9.12.2018

Are you willing to let yourself break?


Are you willing to let yourself break to become? Here is a link to a video on the topic.

Yesterday I was asked to reflect on the question “How has your work evolved over the years?”

As I reflected, what immediately arose is the evolution comes from the depths I have been willing to go into my own being.  To discover who I am beyond this physical body.  To remember the deep truth of who I am and truth about this life.

Through the years I have traveled into the hard, dark spaces, the trauma, the mind control programming, the pain, the discomfort, the heart break, abandonment, betrayal… And it has been so much more about the truth of who I am.

With the question, I reflected back to when I was taken into a really hard space…Last week, 2016, 2013, no, it was 2010, um no 2003… It has actually been my life’s journey, the evolution of my soul to have been in dark spaces, hard times and come through trauma alive. 

From the start, I was being initiated and prepared to hold my hand out and be with another wherever they are in their hard space and guide the into remembering the truth of who they are.

I’ve danced with the dark, explored the light, and found balance in between.  I don’t talk much about the pieces of my past because the past no longer exists unless I draw it forth.  It was what I agreed upon before entering this body. 

What matters most and my message to you is I’ve allowed myself to break and recreate from my own design.  And I come out better, stronger and more me.  Every single time.  And you can do the same.

I’ve released faulty structures and mind fuck programs that kept me from remembering the divine fucking miracle I am (we all are), the power I have within (no one can take away), the strength I have, the dream this life is, and my co-creative ability to design my experience.

For too long I looked outside myself to feel whole and worthy.  I racked up things (money, home, car, relationship, career) to prove my value.

That is where I see the false light and secret teachings are faulty – the ever elusive carrot just out of reach, running on a hamster wheel, never quite getting to the spaces promised upon, ‘if you do this, then this will happen, and I have the golden ticket for you’ bullshit.

It is only because the way it has been taught.  The carrot is possible. Living off the hamster wheel is available.  All the spaces you wish to feel and be are possible.  Just not how its been taught.

Spiritual paradigms, false light teachings are collapsing.  It is its own level of mindfuckery.

Everything is within but we have been taught the love, money, health, down the road goals once attained will bring the satisfaction and enlightenment you’ve been trained to seek.  Oh! and the guru is the one who has the codes for you that you can only attain from them.  Fuck that.

I am a healer, teacher, guide, alchemist, psychic, medium – whatever label you choose.  What I do is to guide YOU to see what is within YOU.  I’ve traveled the path myself – from inside, outside and around myself.  Those that promise that have something they can give you – false light. 

As a forecaster of energy and consciousness, I see all this who-ha crumbling. 

When it all crumbled for me in 2003 I thought I had royally fucked up my life. I was 33 years old (magic, master number) and it was one point in my life I consciously and reluctantly allowed myself to break and fiercely choose for myself.

Looking back now, it’s like that point was the axis and my entire life surrounded it.  Through the following years it has been a continual discovery and uncovering.

Maybe it is just how I’m wired but, I’d rather dive in, rip the band-aid off and deal rather than take the path of a slow, painful suffering I see so many choose as they try and micromanage their break and discovery.

Breaking brings you in.  The prize inside the candy shell.  This journey beyond every break is very much worth it.

My life, my relationships, my health, my career… all very different – much better than eva! Because I knew deep within something more was available.  All that I experienced could have taken me down – I turned it around.   

And that is where, if you have followed my message, you’ve heard me say “create a life you love, you’re the co-creator of your reality.”

My own mind has searched what seemingly seems like a conflicting message.  How can I be co-creating this life that has had an underlying stream of pain, trauma, abuse, heartbreak, suicide, survival?  Why would I make choices to leave behind the stability of a partner, corporate career, steady income to take a path unknown?  How could co-creating my life and it not be all rainbows and unicorns?  (side note: you can have it ALL. #perspective)

I have questioned this enough to keep coming back to the consistent truth.

It is not what happens that makes you who you are – it is what you do with what is happening, who you allow yourself to become from it.  Your willingness and determination to remember – You are the prize within.  You are what you seek.

So, yeah, my work has evolved from the surface, poking through the cracks, to diving into the depths, and going BEYOND.

I can very much be with another pain, in their dark spaces, and ground very deeply into the truth for their remembrance of who they really are – beyond the pain, trauma, stories, mind fuckery.

And my work, where I guide others is not really all about the pain, trauma and darkness – that is a piece, an initiation, an invitation to choose. 

It is those pieces some must move through to remember the divine fucking miracle, power, gift, brilliance they are. 

It is where my journey has prepared me… to bring those who are ready to break – to become, to come back together by their own design.  Not mine, not some other’s blueprint – yours, theirs. 

I’m not afraid of the dark.  I see too many linger there longer than necessary.  I see too many let the dark take them over.

I’m here to guide, those who are ready beyond the break and to remembering the prize they are.

And from that space, guess what? 

All the things you desire come to you. Because you remembered. 

In breaking you become a vibrational match to what is true, real and right for YOU.

Your soul is guiding you.  What you’re going through is for you.  What you desire is within you.

Are you willing to let yourself break to become? 

Because, this is where I find most need support – creating that new life that lives in their heart and feeling empowered within themselves to know all is possible. 

8.26.2018

Soul Aligned Living – group course

I hate bursting a clients ‘dream balloon’.   

Hear me out…  I absolutely believe if your beliefs are aligned with your desires, all is possible.

What I am talking about here is the ‘dream’ that has become a distraction from remembering your truth.

The ‘dream’ you were taught –

“When you attain this thing outside you, then you can be happy and deem yourself successful.”

  • when your business hits a certain mark
  • when you lose that weight
  • when you find the partner/lover/marriage
  • when you make the multi-figures
  • when you get the new ________

…then you can be happy. No!

Or in the case of a client… Their success marker was focused on their clients attaining a certain feeling due to them working together.  I silent measure of their success held solely under the control of the client only.

All the power and measure of success on something outside of my client and their control.

But, that is what many of us were taught – when we can make that ‘thing’ happen, attain the ‘success’, do the ‘thing’, then we can be happy.

Nope. That is some old spiritual paradigm pieces dissolving.

Be happy first.  Live your pleasure. Do the things you enjoy. The rest follows.

Do you want to know the secret the successful, happy ones know and practice?

They know it begins within first.  Feel it first.  See it, align with it, allow it.  From within. 

They know it is their belief in the results they desire that aligns and guides them to have their desired experiences.  

How do I know they know? Because I work with them. I am their best-kept secret. Probably mostly because many of them had to do their craft, art, creations in the dark.

But now… no more hiding in the dark, not allowing yourself to play full out, holding back out of fear…. It is safe for you to be seen.  Nothing outside of you decides your value – you do.  You don’t have to look a certain way to follow your dreams and desires.  There is no having to ‘get it right’ when you’re doing you. 

I have seen you all along.

I’ve been waiting for your readiness.  I only take on the fierce who are determined to remember and reclaim their power.  

You used to be able to hide.  But now, life is not letting you escape the calling.

I’ve been down this road of needing to release what I thought my dreams were and let it all go.  I’ve also been in the space of not living my art, my expression, my joy, my way. 

When you are trying to escape your calling or avoiding your dreams, it is like a piece of you dying. But, don’t let that stop you. There is so much MORE of you and available for you through the integration of you and your soul. 

Are you ready to let your soul shine through? 

New circle forming September 1.

Four weeks together cultivating your soul aligned dream. The thing that is true for YOU. The way you want to do it, have it be it.

  • To feel grounded in being your full, authentic, real self. 
  • Enjoy all the fun stuff that happens for you when there is real alignment. Alignment with what is true for YOU.
  • Things become easier, life flows to you, what you need arrives, who you need to meet comes…

New group, 31 days, live streams, channeled messages, intuitive soul guidance.

Join us for 4-week immersion into you, your soul, your journey… #soulalignedliving

It is time to harvest all you have cultivated.

Do note – I will burst all your ‘bullshit dream bubbles’ that are not working for you.  I’ll bring you out of any haze keeping you from remembering what is true for you.

You’ll:

  • tap back into your deep truth,
  • clear up your confusion,
  • get clear direction and next steps,
  • uplevel your vibration,
  • transcend any limitations in your subconsciousness,
  • and other unspeakable transcendence and magic

Serious freedom seekers and high-level consciousness players need to consider.

Join us for all the magic #soulaligned living can do for you.


Soul Aligned Living: Harvest Time

  • Two live transmissions – monthly themes ($111)
  • Individual Energy Readings and
  • Intuitive Soul Guidance ($240)

BONUS: one, 30 minute private 1:1 laser focus call ($120)

Effective 8/27, the first 5 in the group by 9/3 receive the current bonus.

  • Total value = $471

Your investment – $150

What?!? You might want to jump in now before I realize the insanity of this offer.

Your responsibility

  • Show up for yourself.
  • Fully participate in your experience.
  • Be responsible for the energy you bring to the group.
  • Interact with the group – share and allow yourself to be seen.
  • Ask for what you need.

This group is as close to doing one on one work with me and the value is beyond measure.  This price is subject to change in future series.

Cancellation – Anytime.  Simply email me 48 hours in advance in order to not be charged for the next cycle.  No exceptions.

 


 

 

 

 

 


 

7.13.2018

Heart wide open


Raw, naked, vulnerable… 

Like I was breathing in and out directly from my heart.

My tender heart sitting there wide open.

Things no longer there to protect it.

Protection that once had a purpose but, now a barrier.

I get why. And why others would do the same.

Walking around this wide open is not always met. Walls feel safe. But also keep things out.

In letting it go, there is no putting it back.

This is SO next level surrender.

As my heart is free and breathes, 
~ I am met.
~ Magic shows up.
~ Connections are deep.
~ Love is all around.

I am my medicine.

You are your medicine.

I invite you to allow the walls and armor around your heart to drop.  Open up to the magic.  It is not as scary as you’ve been told.

4.9.2018

Are your BOUNDARIES being pushed, tested, violated?


That is so much of what is happening in the energy and what is up for transmuting collectively.

Take an empowered glance for yourself at what is happening… 

Is the underlying piece about boundaries?

Yes? Why?

Because you’re being guided into the POWER paradigm. 

Therefore, anything unlike it (empowerment) will rise up.

This isn’t about shaming or blaming any part of you that played the victim. 

It is about being offered the option of where you choose to put your attention, shift a belief, build the energy.

A lot of the old paradigm is collapsing.  You’re clearing out the inner pieces you have of it.

The perpetrators are also being called forth and the bright light being shined there. 

Try this one on for size…. In the name of Radical Responsibility –

  • Everyone is playing their part (until you don’t need them to any more).
  • If someone is crossing, violating, pushing your boundaries, something is being called forth FOR YOU.
  • To be a victim, there has to be a perpetrator (you can sometimes be doing it to yourself).
  • And for there to be a perpetrator there has to be a victim.

OR NOT.

What if each party shifted their focus, did their collective healing, owned their piece of the experience and exchanges?

First, it would take Radical Responsibility to look honestly within –

:: How you’re feeling about what is happening?

:: What is being reflected back to you in life? 

:: What is your piece?

Are you playing out any victim energy? Are you the perpetrator?

This ENTIRE paradigm is collapsing. 

I am seeing  it happen in all kinds of ways.

I share this so you know what and why things are happening and how to move THROUGH them and into where you’re being led.

There is a burning off, opening up, celebrating, setting free…

And what is left is LOVE. 

And that, my friends, is what is happening…

In the story of experiences playing out in your life, where boundaries are the underlying theme, it is about you being pointed toward remembering LOVE (and all that is encompassed).

You are Love.

Be grateful (as hard as it can be sometimes) for the people and experiences guiding you to REMEMBER.

Kelly Ann

 

By the way, The Way of the Empowered Empath course is ready to be birthed.

I’m watching the energy come together and create a vortex.

If you’re meant to be a part of it you’ll feel the attraction and energetic invitation.

It’s a vibratory grid and sacred space of upleveling beyond what words could even convey.

You’ll feel it.

Once it’s typed up, I’ll post here

I’m excited to get another group going.

Message me if you’d like a direct message with the details.

In the meantime, love yo’self UP!

1.7.2018

Mindset and Relationships – You are the Creator

Below I share a personal experience about Relationships, Manifesting and Empowerment. But, first I want to give you some background on what the Current Energies are.

{and I posted another angle to the energies on my page last night – check it. Can you see how it’s playing out for you?}

In the coming days – if not already – you’re going to see your patterns, beliefs and wounds from your past relationships pop up in your current exchanges (not only romantic).

Some examples of your:

victimhood

– boundaries

– worthiness

– truest desires

trauma

– fears…

When you become uncomfortable, the tendency is to try and fix the other person or have expectations of how the other (s) should behave.

Have something outside you change so you can feel better inside….??? Nope!  That keeps you stuck in the subconscious cycles and limiting patterns you are very much trying to break.

What is realllllly going on, in this uncomfortable exchange, is the other person is mirroring back to you something you have within you that you are believing or holding onto and it doesn’t serve who you really are and what you really want.

{read that again}

Your SOUL knows. That is how these exchanges are brought into your life.

The healing and shift in relationships happens within YOU first then the experience shifts.

For me, there was this one particular, profound quantum leap, complete shift in my experience  that proved all I now teach about mindset, energy, manifesting, empowerment, etc.

I had a “story” running through my mind about a relationship I was in. Alllll the things wrong. It is where my mind continually focused – all the wrongness. Creating a precise order to make manifest.

And it did – the way things were playing out were awful.

Until…. I decided to tell a new story.

In this new story, I allowed myself to fantasize about what I REALLY wanted. To imagine, vision, feel my hearts desires.

Because, under the surface – and what was manifest in the relationship – was about me having buried beliefs about what having what I want, love, need, desire… meant.

Fuck! Right? Trying sooooo hard to make things work and then realize I was in the way the entire time. Ahhhh… Ugggh! But, this is how we discover ourselves. #radicalselflove

I discovered I had beliefs along the lines of not deserving, unworthy, unlovable, ashamed for wanting, afraid if I allowed myself to have it then it would go away… And maybe a few other things.

Can you relate?

So, this one day I went into a meditation and let all my inner walls down. I allowed myself feel my desires, to imagine what the ideal exchange would be like, how it would feel to allow all I wanted to feel ….  #unfuckyourmind

And that very day!!, he came home and the scene I had visualized, felt and allowed myself to experience through my whole BEing, played out.

It was one of those mind blowing, alchemical, complete 180 before my eyes manifestations that reminded me of my power and showed me how to create shifts in my life.

It is important to be clear (especially with what this current energy is kicking up) – This had nothing to do with me changing him or having an expectation of his behavior.

It was about Me. My inner story, beliefs and fears. Once cleared and shifted then aligning my vibration, I was able to allow the experience I reallllly wanted.

So, as these experiences and opportunities for healing and growth appear FOR YOU, go inside yourself and ask …

• what is this showing me about me?

• what need do I have that I’m projecting in the other and angry for not fulfilling?

• what do I really want?

• if this “static” was not here, what could really be possible?

You know the saying ….“It’s not you, it’s me.”

You have been calling out for MORE. Life is presenting it to you – Likely not in the way you’d expect.  No one said this would be easy. But, if you’re here, you’ve got this!

* What you see is up to you.

* What you do is up to you.

By the way Love, you cannot get it wrong.

Fiercely CLAIM what you desire and how you want to feel and watch the world match you.

oxox,

Kelly Ann

2.22.2017

Ripple effects of healing your heart

In this session I did some heart healing with this beautiful soul. Spirit showed me a prominent relationship from her past that left some wounds.

I focused the heart healing within her and between them. She could see how that pattern continued in relationships that followed. She had been single for a while and quite frustrated.

When we have these open wounds, we tend to do all we can to keep the wound from being poked. That includes keeping the love we really want at arms length away from us – unconsciously and energetically.

It was a beautiful and gentle process where she felt a shift and changed the story about her experience. And then was asked out on two dates

When we shift the energy within and are able to see our story differently, our experience shifts.

I feel so honored to do this sacred work with beautiful people who are totally ready to shift what’s in their way of having the love and life they desire.

 

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