Entries Tagged as 'Love and Relationships'

2.22.2017

Ripple effects of healing your heart

In this session I did some heart healing with this beautiful soul. Spirit showed me a prominent relationship from her past that left some wounds.

I focused the heart healing within her and between them. She could see how that pattern continued in relationships that followed. She had been single for a while and quite frustrated.

When we have these open wounds, we tend to do all we can to keep the wound from being poked. That includes keeping the love we really want at arms length away from us – unconsciously and energetically.

It was a beautiful and gentle process where she felt a shift and changed the story about her experience. And then was asked out on two dates

When we shift the energy within and are able to see our story differently, our experience shifts.

I feel so honored to do this sacred work with beautiful people who are totally ready to shift what’s in their way of having the love and life they desire.

 

2.1.2017

Speak your truth

A theme running through right now is ‘speak your truth’. The energy is here providing us with opportunities to speak up for our beliefs, what we need, and how we feel.

This can be triggering and uncomfortable. 

– Triggering fears within before speaking up. There is no avoiding it any longer. We deeply we know we must speak up now. If we don’t speak up, it just doesn’t feel good. (Feels super bad)

– Triggering other emotions we have as we speak up. Maybe even emotions that don’t make sense given the circumstances – sadness, grief, overwhelm…

– Experiencing other people’s stuff getting triggered by us speaking up.

– Being triggered by another’s trigger.

So how the heck do we get through it?

* Speak your truth even if your voice shakes.

* Allow your feelings space to be felt.

* Be present with the energy that gets stirred up within. Let it move through you.

This could be a major turning point, internal energy shift, and deep healing opportunity. Embrace and honor where you are being led.

 

1.5.2017

How Buried Beliefs and Unhealed Wounds Play Out until Healed and Collapsed

“There is something I need to tell you”, he says. “I never filed for divorce”.  These words come through as she was ending the relationship.  This was important information he “had to get off his chest”.  Was it really necessary to share this now??  Could she have just walked away without knowing this?

Her heart sank.  The wool had been pulled over her eyes. Again.  Her stomach felt like it was being ripped out.  How could she have not known?  They were together nearly every day for six months; casually hanging out for a few months before that and friends from a long time ago.

She gave this man her heart, mind and body.  She allowed herself to trust him when he said  “the divorce is in progress. It is just a matter of time.  I love you. I have liked you for a long time.  I want to marry you.”  With that she had decided to move the relationship beyond a friendship.

In retrospect she sees how something was always kind of off.  She could never quite put her finger on it or have evidence of what was wrong.  But, there was a feeling.  She fought to be a part of his life beyond their relationship – to meet his friends, family, child.  She wanted to feel important to him.  Yet, the feelings she had were of shame and needing to be hidden – without evidence of why.

Hearing this information kind of flipped her world around and it at the same time it was a familiar experience. Looking back, it was necessary for her to hear and know this at this point in time.

This experience was familiar to a childhood experience, 30 years prior, where truths had been revealed that greatly impacted who she was and where she came from. An entirely different script had been revealed than what she had been living out.  The wool had been pulled from over her eyes.

The truth that had been revealed caused her to put up an invisible wall around her heart.  Not really allowing others to get too close – afraid she could be deeply hurt.  Buried beliefs had instantly been developed like – ‘there is something wrong with me’ (shame).

When we have buried beliefs, we do all we can to protect them and ourselves.  We put on fronts not wanting anyone to see what we believe about ourselves.  Unfortunately, these beliefs keep us from having what we truly desire in our lives.

Fast forward nearly a year later.  She attracts a great man into her life.  He is tall, handsome, funny, their humor and personalities fit well.  She gushes to her friends about how magical and fun it is.  Until… that wound, still not healed, raises it’s ugly head.

She creates an experience where she is questioning the new guys past and the details around his divorce.  Was he really divorced?  Why aren’t the numbers matching up to what he shared?

Buried beliefs about herself rise to the surface – she can’t trust who she chooses, she cannot allow herself to be happy.

In turn, the new guy, possibly triggered with his own stuff about his honesty being questioned, gets defensive and pulls away.

Exactly what her pattern and buried belief are built to do – keep her from getting close to another.  It is not about him at all – it is about her.  He is responding exactly how her program was built.

We are the creators of our lives.  As I said earlier, our higher self will help us attract into our lives the exact experiences and people to help us heal these wounds that keep us from allowing what we truly desire.  It is our divine right to enjoy life, experience love, have inner peace.

While our natural reaction may be to blame the other, they are the exact character in our life’s play to help bring down the walls around our hearts.  So while we may walk away or end a relationship that has caused us pain, we are actually being given an opportunity to go deeper within our hearts and align more with love.

Our minds will tell us this needs to be resolved with the other.  Truth is, it needs to be resolved within.  The experience is a manifestation of what is going on within.  Once the wound is healed and the buried belief is collapsed, the need to call in the experiences and people to help do that cease.

Who knows what will happen with this new guy.  He may have just come in to help reveal the buried beliefs and a layer of the unhealed wound.  Or he may be the one to help guide her deeper into love – with another and for herself.

Her mind naturally wants to prepare for the worst – another ending.

Yet, she knows the truth of the experience – she is the creator. She is healing and integrating the past parts of her that had been hurt.  She is focusing on the experience she truly wants to create.  This surely is threatening all her inner protective mechanisms.  Mechanisms that are no longer serving her in where she is headed.

It takes courage and commitment to see these parts of ourselves and drop the protection mechanisms.  Handling breakups and endings became easier as that was part of the pattern she had to keep herself safe.

Her opportunity now was to go into the unknown spaces of deeper love.  She is ready.

Better to have lost in love than never to have loved at all”.  The Eurythmics

12.8.2016

Relationships and love languages

Relationships with others are pivotal in our growth and expansion.  I believe we are all here, in this human experience, to learn about love – love for ourselves and love for one another.  Relationships are our one of our guides through that journey.

Relationships can bring us our biggest challenges in facing our own inner blocks to love.

Relationships can also bring out depths of love within us we didn’t know existed until another came along.

How we give love and how we receive love may be two different things.  Understanding this about ourselves and others can exponentially increase the depths of our relationships – with ourself and others.

Gary Chapman wrote a book “The Five Love Languages”.  He broke down five primary ways people connect with others.  This is not just for romantic, love relationships – all relationships.

The five Love Languages are:
1. Words of Affirmation
2. Physical Touch
3. Acts of Service
4. Gifts
5. Quality Time

Love, it really is another language.  When not understood or communicated using ones love language, it can be quite frustrating and cause discord in relationships where one, the other, or both does not feel loved.

Another way to put it: If someone were to speak to you in Spanish (and you don’t know the language), it would be hard for you to interpret what they are saying.  Same with your love language.  If someone is loving you up by giving you Gifts and your love language is Words of Affirmation, you may not feel the love they are expressing.

Not one of the five is better than another.  But, to know how you and another feels loved can support and create deep connections with little effort – just an awareness and a possible shift in how love is expressed.

Often times people show love to others the way they receive love.

This may not match the others love language.  Again, if your primary love language is Physical Touch, you are likely to connect with others through touch.  If anothers love language is Quality Time and you are connecting through Physical Touch, the difference there can have someone not feeling the love you are intending.

As I write this I am reminded of a time I went to my parents home to help clear up the yard (Acts of Service).  My mother didn’t know I was planning to do so.  I spent about four hours clearing brush, cutting down over grown trees and branches, raking leaves, clearing off the sidewalk and driveway.  When I finished I went to a farm up the street to get a plant to add some color to the porch and entry way my mother comes into the house (Gifts).

She called me later that night thanking me for all the work I did and how good it looked.  Then she spoke of the colorful plant (her favorite color too), asked if I bought it for her, shared how much she loved it and began crying.  The plant is what stood out to her and touched her the most.

So, knowing Gifts is her Love Language, I will keep this in mind when I want to be sure she knows I love her.

I believe our love languages can change depending on situations but, we’ll usually lean more toward a primary one or two.

Understanding your love language as well as others in your life can be a game changer in your relationships.  It is easy to find what your love language is.  Here is a link to a quick quiz.  Take it for yourself and share it with your partner, lover, friends.

What could be possible in this world if we all deepened our relationships with ourselves and others?

Knowing our love language and that of others is one way we can all increase the vibration of love within and through the world.

10.11.2016

Radical Self Love as a Spiritual Practice

I believe there has been a long time misunderstanding and confusion about what self love means. I consider radical self love to mean caring for yourself, honoring your well being, taking responsibility for yourself and your life, respecting your body, meeting yourself with compassion and kindness, making empowered choices, being a conscious participant in creating your reality. Self love certainly is not about being an egomaniac, self centered, or arrogant.

We have unconsciously been taught that to love ourselves is to be vain, selfish, conceited, and wrong. We learned to feel ashamed about liking ourselves – never mind speak to anyone out loud about our goodness.

Radical self love is a way to shift these beliefs and unconscious thought patterns. These buried beliefs we picked up and made meaning about ourselves are not serving our greatest potential. These patterns and beliefs hold us back from living out our fullest expression in this life.

Our life experience is a manifestation of the vibration we carry within us. This is why I suggest Radical Self Love as a Spiritual Practice. The relationship we have with ourselves is what is expressed from within and mirrored back to us.

We teach others how to treat us by how we treat ourselves. We see the reflection back from our experiences with others and in life. We have the ability to shift what we experience by loving ourselves more.

My reality is a reflection of who I believe I am.

Before I began teaching and coaching radical self love, I was on the phone crying to a friend about how poorly someone important to me how treated me. Thank goodness this friend didn’t feed into my story of being a victim and told me the truth – “You have to love yourself first”, she said. I gasped ” C’Mon! Of course I love myself!”

After some honest, inner exploration, I discovered I had no idea what ‘to love myself first’ really meant. In fact, what was happening around me and in my relationships reflected how I was treating myself. Gasp!

When I started to practice radical self love, my entire life experience shifted to more positive interactions and outcomes. I felt more confident, self assured, I trusted myself. Who and what I attracted into my life felt better and I was more in the flow.

Unfortunately, not many of us know how to truly love ourselves. This is a key piece preventing us from manifesting our dreams and creating the lives we desire.

We must be easy on ourselves through this inner exploration. The relationship we have with ourselves was developed from what we learned by example from the generations before us and their self love – or lack of. We also made meaning about ourselves from how they treated us.

Many of us have been through some challenges and traumas in our past where we’ve unconsciously decided those experiences meant “I don’t matter”, “I’m not important enough”, “I’m not worth it” or something along those lines.

Then what happens is we carry that with us and our life reflects back to us these meanings throughout our relationships and experiences.

Radical self love wipes out those stories and old programs.

Radical self love reframes the beliefs about who you think you are. Allow me to remind you who you are… You are amazing being that the universe thought was a great idea and brought you here at this particular time because you play a unique, exceptional part in the vastness of the entire experience of this world.

Yes. It is true. So, to think that you are not worthy, not valued, or don’t matter is ri-dic-u-lous! Lets just start there.

In order to change what was happening in my life I brought conscious attention to what I was focusing on and putting my energy towards. I started to realize how the negative, Debbie Downer thoughts I was expressing matched my experiences!

I put more attention toward what I wanted to feel and experience than what was actually happening.

Self love is the new anti-aging.

:: I changed the way I spoke to myself – I wrote affirmations and mantras on sticky notes all over my home. Soon attracting a partner who said the exact words to me.

:: I loved up my body – healthier choices became more natural and easier to make. With the heavy, negative thoughts gone, physical weight released too.

:: I practiced giving more to myself and built the muscle of feeling safe to allow and receive – more good came my way for me to receive from others and life.

:: I said “no” to others and said “yes” to myself – giving myself what I needed first because we are all better for the world when our own cup is full first.

:: I nourished my soul through allowing my feelings to flow and not hold them back any longer – I swear it is the best anti-aging secret!

:: I bravely stood up for myself – I showed the inner parts of me that life is safe now, I am in charge and I’ve got my back.

:: I created a life I love by letting go of others expectations – creating a business that shows others how they can do the same.

:: I let go of resenting others – seeing how holding on held me in the vibration of being wronged or victimized (dead weight for my energy field).

:: I practiced and became skilled at self trust by making choices my heart guided me to – finding myself in the flow of life and ending up exactly where, when and with whom I am meant to be.

Reframing the inner thoughts and beliefs creates an energetic shift and the outer experience becomes a match to that vibration.

If what we are experiencing doesn’t feel good it is a signal to take a brave, compassionate look within.

Doing the inner exploration of my thoughts, beliefs and how I was creating my world wasn’t always easy. Along the way I had help making these changes. I created practices to remind me the truth of who I am and how to always come back to self love.

If you are inspired to add radical self love as a part of your practice, begin by:

:: exploring your beliefs,
:: asking yourself honest questions,
:: place attention on what you say about yourself,
:: notice the things you are focusing your energy toward,
:: look at the visions you are playing over and over in your mind.

The most important relationship you have is the one with yourself.

All change happens within and then manifest in your experience. Nurture and make the relationship with you a priority and witness the world reflect back to you. You are so worth your own time and attention!

Would you like a guide to help you make this part of your practice and change your relationship? Grab a mini e-course: A guide to radical self love.

6.8.2016

Creating change and manifesting

The Universe Works in Response to How You Feel

Just like tuning into a radio station you want to listen to, tune into the feeling you wish to experience.

Change your feeling and your experience changes.

What are you ready to change? Love, money, career, friendships, health… ?

:: Go within.

:: Get honest with yourself.

:: Listen to the words you use about this thing you wish to experience.

Is it full of possibilities, wonder, excitement?

Or are you aligned with the lack of not having it?

Can you change how you feel about it?

How would it feel to have the experience you want?

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5.3.2016

When you aren’t attracting love

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Words have energy.

Your thoughts have energy.

Our beliefs hold energy.

What we believe about ourselves comes through to others.

Start telling a new story.

Shift our beliefs, our lives shift.

 

4.26.2016

Stay true to you

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The details will work themselves out.

Keep in your own lane.

Pull your energy back from others.

Focus on what you want and hand over the ‘how’ of it happening.

Surrender.

Open up to possibilities beyond what your eyes and ego can see.

 

 

 

1.28.2014

Is chocolate an aphrodisiac?

“All you need is love. But, a little chocolate now and then doesn’t hurt.” Charles Schulz

Looking to spice things up this Valentine’s Day with your Beloved?  Need an amazing treat to bring to the Galentine’s celebration with your girlfriends?  This super easy chocolate brownie recipe is a sweet treat that everyone will love!  And they’ll never guess what the secret ingredient is.

Chocolate has been thought to be an aphrodisiac.  It’s been said chocolate sets off endorphins in your brain that create a similar effect of what being in love feels like.  I’m not a scientist, but any reason to indulge in chocolate and love is a good one for me!  

The other great part of this recipe?  They’re gluten free! 

They say you get to a man’s heart through his stomach – this one will do the trick!

Guys, your GF girl will love you for these. Give it a try.

Healthy is the new sexy!

Healthy is the new sexy!

 

Chocolate Flourless Brownie Recipe

Makes 16 (I double the recipe to make thicker brownies)

Ingredients:

1 (15-ounce) can no-salt-added black beans, drained and rinsed
3 large eggs
1/3 cup melted butter, more for the baking dish
1/4 cup cocoa powder
1/8 teaspoon salt
2 teaspoon gluten-free vanilla extract (I use regular and have tried Almond extract and received rave reviews)
1/2 cup sugar (I use palm coconut sugar and less than 1/2 cup)
1/2 cup gluten-free semi-sweet chocolate chips or peanut butter chips (gluten free if necessary or use regular)
1/3 cup finely chopped walnuts (optional)

Method

Preheat oven to 350°F.

Butter an 8-inch baking pan (I use 13X9 when doubling the recipe). Place the black beans, eggs, melted butter, cocoa powder, salt, vanilla, and sugar in the bowl of a food processor and blend until smooth. Remove the blade and carefully stir in the chocolate chips and nuts. Transfer mixture to the prepared pan. Bake the brownies for 30 to 35 minutes (little longer for doubled recipe), or until just set in the center. Cool before cutting into squares.

Top with a little whip cream (save some for the brownies) and enjoy!

After you’ve given the recipe a try, come back here or on Facebook and share what you thought.

9.16.2013

Your relationships don’t last? This may be why…

Are you in a cycle of being single?  Feels like for-ev-er since you met someone.

Do you keep attracting the same type as your ex(es)?

Is your pattern of great relationships that fizzle out at a month or three. Every.Single.Time.?

Those are some signals you’ve got a buried belief or past pain in your way of allowing love inKeep reading… I’ll share how you can set yourself up for success in dating!

Okay, so you meet someone –  online, an introduction, out dancing, or in line at the grocery store.  You are immediately attracted to them.  You decide to go out, get coffee, or have dinner.  It’s so exciting; you finally met someone you dig and who digs you back.  What will you wear?

You talk every day.  Exchange texts.  Sweet messages in the morning or before bed.  Immediately (consciously or not) you begin to create a story in your mind about who they are (typically who you want them to be).  You’re dreaming about what your future could be. Living together, traveling, weekends away, marriage, kids…. Then you begin to compare your long list of qualifications.  What kind of job they have, car they drive, do they live at home with their parents, are they a vegetarian, like dogs, have tatts, what kind of money do they make… Everything is checking out nicely.

You keep going out, having a great time, making googly eyes at one another, talking about future plans.  The physical chemistry is out of this world!  All of life feels so good when you’re in love.  Could this possibly be ‘the one’?  Butterflies in your stomach, you’re telling your friends about them, they’re on your mind all day.  You begin checking off the qualifications that match your list.  Yeah, this is it, you tell yourself.

You’ve opened your heart, you’re feeling vulnerable, you are getting closer to them.  It’s what happens when you start to fall in love.  And then… here is where potential trouble could begin.

Weird stuff starts happening.  You pick a fight over pizza (or something truly insignificant). You blame them for not saying the ‘right thing’.  They’re texting on their phone while you’re out to dinner. They’re acting weird.  They stop sending sweet texts. It feels like they’re pulling away.

It’s not them, it’s youYou have more power in creating a beautiful relationship – or destroying it – than you realize.

The most dangerous underlying current to wreck potential for great relationship is your unconscious thought patterns.  They show up from past pains.

Past Pains could be past relationships or childhood traumas.  Experiences you’ve made it through, but never truly healed. These may begin to unconsciously pop up. Your ego doesn’t want to see you suffer again. It’ll do anything to keep you from getting in a similar situation. You begin to sabotage the connection. You’re flirting with others, trying to make them jealous. You test their love. Not really believing you deserve love (unconsciously perhaps), you think they’re cheating.  You become paranoid and start asking questions.  You wonder ‘how could they love me?’  The fears starts giving you reasons this person isn’t a good match (ignoring all the good qualifications).

What’s really happening is your past pains and inner child are dating – not the grown adult, not the one who really wants love.  You want love, but why does it keeps evading you?

You need to do your own healing work before you attract a relationship. 

The likelihood of your relationship lasting is based on your availability to give and receive love Otherwise, you’ll sabotage it, attract someone like your past, have the relationship end just as it begins, or end up finding a bunch of things wrong with this quite perfect match for you.

Consider this before moving on to your next relationship.

  • Give yourself time between relationships. A third of the time you were together is how long you may need to be single and ready for the next.
  • Love yourself first.  Fall in love with you. Become the person you wish to be with.
  • Allow your heartache to heal.  Feel the emotions.
  • Get clear in what you want (list 5 must have’s).
  • Get clear in what you don’t want (list 5 have not’s). 
  • Don’t distract yourself by jumping into dating or keeping busy. What’s underlying the urge to be busy or super date needs healing.


Think of this time as preparatory time for the love you truly desire.  Know that your significant other is also preparing for you.  The inner work you do, the time you take to be with you, and the clarity you have on what you desire is all worth the wait for what your heart truly desires and deserves.  I pinky swear!

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