Entries Tagged as 'Radical Self Love'

9.12.2018

Are you willing to let yourself break?


Are you willing to let yourself break to become? Here is a link to a video on the topic.

Yesterday I was asked to reflect on the question “How has your work evolved over the years?”

As I reflected, what immediately arose is the evolution comes from the depths I have been willing to go into my own being.  To discover who I am beyond this physical body.  To remember the deep truth of who I am and truth about this life.

Through the years I have traveled into the hard, dark spaces, the trauma, the mind control programming, the pain, the discomfort, the heart break, abandonment, betrayal… And it has been so much more about the truth of who I am.

With the question, I reflected back to when I was taken into a really hard space…Last week, 2016, 2013, no, it was 2010, um no 2003… It has actually been my life’s journey, the evolution of my soul to have been in dark spaces, hard times and come through trauma alive. 

From the start, I was being initiated and prepared to hold my hand out and be with another wherever they are in their hard space and guide the into remembering the truth of who they are.

I’ve danced with the dark, explored the light, and found balance in between.  I don’t talk much about the pieces of my past because the past no longer exists unless I draw it forth.  It was what I agreed upon before entering this body. 

What matters most and my message to you is I’ve allowed myself to break and recreate from my own design.  And I come out better, stronger and more me.  Every single time.  And you can do the same.

I’ve released faulty structures and mind fuck programs that kept me from remembering the divine fucking miracle I am (we all are), the power I have within (no one can take away), the strength I have, the dream this life is, and my co-creative ability to design my experience.

For too long I looked outside myself to feel whole and worthy.  I racked up things (money, home, car, relationship, career) to prove my value.

That is where I see the false light and secret teachings are faulty – the ever elusive carrot just out of reach, running on a hamster wheel, never quite getting to the spaces promised upon, ‘if you do this, then this will happen, and I have the golden ticket for you’ bullshit.

It is only because the way it has been taught.  The carrot is possible. Living off the hamster wheel is available.  All the spaces you wish to feel and be are possible.  Just not how its been taught.

Spiritual paradigms, false light teachings are collapsing.  It is its own level of mindfuckery.

Everything is within but we have been taught the love, money, health, down the road goals once attained will bring the satisfaction and enlightenment you’ve been trained to seek.  Oh! and the guru is the one who has the codes for you that you can only attain from them.  Fuck that.

I am a healer, teacher, guide, alchemist, psychic, medium – whatever label you choose.  What I do is to guide YOU to see what is within YOU.  I’ve traveled the path myself – from inside, outside and around myself.  Those that promise that have something they can give you – false light. 

As a forecaster of energy and consciousness, I see all this who-ha crumbling. 

When it all crumbled for me in 2003 I thought I had royally fucked up my life. I was 33 years old (magic, master number) and it was one point in my life I consciously and reluctantly allowed myself to break and fiercely choose for myself.

Looking back now, it’s like that point was the axis and my entire life surrounded it.  Through the following years it has been a continual discovery and uncovering.

Maybe it is just how I’m wired but, I’d rather dive in, rip the band-aid off and deal rather than take the path of a slow, painful suffering I see so many choose as they try and micromanage their break and discovery.

Breaking brings you in.  The prize inside the candy shell.  This journey beyond every break is very much worth it.

My life, my relationships, my health, my career… all very different – much better than eva! Because I knew deep within something more was available.  All that I experienced could have taken me down – I turned it around.   

And that is where, if you have followed my message, you’ve heard me say “create a life you love, you’re the co-creator of your reality.”

My own mind has searched what seemingly seems like a conflicting message.  How can I be co-creating this life that has had an underlying stream of pain, trauma, abuse, heartbreak, suicide, survival?  Why would I make choices to leave behind the stability of a partner, corporate career, steady income to take a path unknown?  How could co-creating my life and it not be all rainbows and unicorns?  (side note: you can have it ALL. #perspective)

I have questioned this enough to keep coming back to the consistent truth.

It is not what happens that makes you who you are – it is what you do with what is happening, who you allow yourself to become from it.  Your willingness and determination to remember – You are the prize within.  You are what you seek.

So, yeah, my work has evolved from the surface, poking through the cracks, to diving into the depths, and going BEYOND.

I can very much be with another pain, in their dark spaces, and ground very deeply into the truth for their remembrance of who they really are – beyond the pain, trauma, stories, mind fuckery.

And my work, where I guide others is not really all about the pain, trauma and darkness – that is a piece, an initiation, an invitation to choose. 

It is those pieces some must move through to remember the divine fucking miracle, power, gift, brilliance they are. 

It is where my journey has prepared me… to bring those who are ready to break – to become, to come back together by their own design.  Not mine, not some other’s blueprint – yours, theirs. 

I’m not afraid of the dark.  I see too many linger there longer than necessary.  I see too many let the dark take them over.

I’m here to guide, those who are ready beyond the break and to remembering the prize they are.

And from that space, guess what? 

All the things you desire come to you. Because you remembered. 

In breaking you become a vibrational match to what is true, real and right for YOU.

Your soul is guiding you.  What you’re going through is for you.  What you desire is within you.

Are you willing to let yourself break to become? 

Because, this is where I find most need support – creating that new life that lives in their heart and feeling empowered within themselves to know all is possible. 

9.6.2018

What happens when you’re remembering your power


Power. Empowerment.  “Take your power back”… I’ve likely used the language myself.  How I now see it… it is about REMEMBERING your power. 

Like Glynda the good witch said… You’ve had your power all along. 

Through life, we forget, it was pushed away, squashed down, or for some, never really tapped into it. 

Here is what was coming through today…

When you remember your power – boundaries, respect, speaking your truth and such – those whose thumb was holding you down will fight back, gas light you, or walk away. 

If remembering your power is new to you, their response to you may trigger an automatic reflex to drop back into you forgetting. 

I’m writing to remind you… 

:: No one has power over you. 

:: No one can take anything from you that you don’t hand over. 

:: You deserve respect – it all begins with yourself. 

:: Walking away from those who don’t mirror your self respect isn’t as scary as your mind might tell you. 

:: Don’t allow yourself to get caught in drama or the blame game in the power dynamic. 

:: Some people only feel powerful when they are over powering another.

:: What people do is about them.  And, when it impacts you it means there is a match to that experience within you.

In any case, all of what is happening is information FOR YOU to make a choice. 

Sometimes the choices are challenging.

– It will mean the good girl / boy will be uncomfortable. 

– It may mean losing relationships. 

– It will mean saying the hard things. 

– It may mean being with all the feelings you’ve not felt from the past when you forgot or didn’t remember your power.

For some remembering your power is like learning a foreign language.  Drop any expectations you have of yourself for perfectionism.

Remembering your power may look messy, you won’t do it ‘right’ at first, you’ll fumble, stumble and maybe even look like a hot mess.  It is okay. You’ll do better next time.

What is important is to do what you need to in order to walk away from those who don’t honor and see you for who you are.

The ones who do will honor, respect and appreciate you as you find your way. 

When you walk away from those who don’t, more who speak your language will come into your life.  Be patient.  Your Soul is guiding you to ensure you are prepared and available for the levels of love you’re deserving of and ready for.

It begins within.

Your power has been with you all along.  You’re a Divine child of this universe made from Love.

Remember that and life aligns to match and meet you there.

8.26.2018

Soul Aligned Living – group course

I hate bursting a clients ‘dream balloon’.   

Hear me out…  I absolutely believe if your beliefs are aligned with your desires, all is possible.

What I am talking about here is the ‘dream’ that has become a distraction from remembering your truth.

The ‘dream’ you were taught –

“When you attain this thing outside you, then you can be happy and deem yourself successful.”

  • when your business hits a certain mark
  • when you lose that weight
  • when you find the partner/lover/marriage
  • when you make the multi-figures
  • when you get the new ________

…then you can be happy. No!

Or in the case of a client… Their success marker was focused on their clients attaining a certain feeling due to them working together.  I silent measure of their success held solely under the control of the client only.

All the power and measure of success on something outside of my client and their control.

But, that is what many of us were taught – when we can make that ‘thing’ happen, attain the ‘success’, do the ‘thing’, then we can be happy.

Nope. That is some old spiritual paradigm pieces dissolving.

Be happy first.  Live your pleasure. Do the things you enjoy. The rest follows.

Do you want to know the secret the successful, happy ones know and practice?

They know it begins within first.  Feel it first.  See it, align with it, allow it.  From within. 

They know it is their belief in the results they desire that aligns and guides them to have their desired experiences.  

How do I know they know? Because I work with them. I am their best-kept secret. Probably mostly because many of them had to do their craft, art, creations in the dark.

But now… no more hiding in the dark, not allowing yourself to play full out, holding back out of fear…. It is safe for you to be seen.  Nothing outside of you decides your value – you do.  You don’t have to look a certain way to follow your dreams and desires.  There is no having to ‘get it right’ when you’re doing you. 

I have seen you all along.

I’ve been waiting for your readiness.  I only take on the fierce who are determined to remember and reclaim their power.  

You used to be able to hide.  But now, life is not letting you escape the calling.

I’ve been down this road of needing to release what I thought my dreams were and let it all go.  I’ve also been in the space of not living my art, my expression, my joy, my way. 

When you are trying to escape your calling or avoiding your dreams, it is like a piece of you dying. But, don’t let that stop you. There is so much MORE of you and available for you through the integration of you and your soul. 

Are you ready to let your soul shine through? 

New circle forming September 1.

Four weeks together cultivating your soul aligned dream. The thing that is true for YOU. The way you want to do it, have it be it.

  • To feel grounded in being your full, authentic, real self. 
  • Enjoy all the fun stuff that happens for you when there is real alignment. Alignment with what is true for YOU.
  • Things become easier, life flows to you, what you need arrives, who you need to meet comes…

New group, 31 days, live streams, channeled messages, intuitive soul guidance.

Join us for 4-week immersion into you, your soul, your journey… #soulalignedliving

It is time to harvest all you have cultivated.

Do note – I will burst all your ‘bullshit dream bubbles’ that are not working for you.  I’ll bring you out of any haze keeping you from remembering what is true for you.

You’ll:

  • tap back into your deep truth,
  • clear up your confusion,
  • get clear direction and next steps,
  • uplevel your vibration,
  • transcend any limitations in your subconsciousness,
  • and other unspeakable transcendence and magic

Serious freedom seekers and high-level consciousness players need to consider.

Join us for all the magic #soulaligned living can do for you.


Soul Aligned Living: Harvest Time

  • Two live transmissions – monthly themes ($111)
  • Individual Energy Readings and
  • Intuitive Soul Guidance ($240)

BONUS: one, 30 minute private 1:1 laser focus call ($120)

Effective 8/27, the first 5 in the group by 9/3 receive the current bonus.

  • Total value = $471

Your investment – $150

What?!? You might want to jump in now before I realize the insanity of this offer.

Your responsibility

  • Show up for yourself.
  • Fully participate in your experience.
  • Be responsible for the energy you bring to the group.
  • Interact with the group – share and allow yourself to be seen.
  • Ask for what you need.

This group is as close to doing one on one work with me and the value is beyond measure.  This price is subject to change in future series.

Cancellation – Anytime.  Simply email me 48 hours in advance in order to not be charged for the next cycle.  No exceptions.

 


 

 

 

 

 


 

8.11.2018

How to not miss what you’re looking for


Are you missing out and not seeing the abundance and love that is already all around you?

Do you see the way life adjusts and opens after your slight shift, your request, after voicing a desire?

  • You weren’t taught to look for the good.
  • Your brain is wired to find and fix problems.
  • Your nervous system on alert to survive, fight or flee.

Until you #unfuckyourmind

With my private clients, I see all that is unfolding and unveiling for them. How their programming keeps them from seeing and allowing all the good.

As they tap into their power and start shifting their worlds, they see the direct correlation to their energy and experiences.

Once you realize what is possible and how you can do it for yourself… there is no going back.

One client, an artist, held on to a subliminal “rule” about how music and instruments “should” be used for expression.

Her “homework” was to get outside, dance wildly and allow her voice to channel the energy and consciousness wanting to move through her in whatever way – NO RULES.

Shortly after we spoke and shifted the energy around that belief, she was gifted a new violin.

(Side note: this client is going to be doing a lot of things HER WAY! It is these little breakthroughs that support the foundation of what’s ahead)

This picture of me… I had expressed my love for bubbles a couple times that week. Days later I’m dancing outside to great music in a shower of bubbles raining down on me.

If you don’t notice the little things, you’re likely missing the big things.

It’s gratitude. Annnd… dissolving the invisible walls inside, dropping the roles of “good girl / good boy”, being firm in your desires, deleting the subliminal rules, claiming what you really want… (the last one is a biggie)

Start looking more closely for the good, love, magic, gifts, abundance in life and you’ll see how life shifts for and with you.

Are you ready for some personal guidance to get beyond your subconscious limitations and tap into your power to co-create?

Message me… Tell me what you want for yourself.

Photo by Studio Feruvius

7.30.2018

Are you feeling anxious?


Me too. Low level anxiety is what one may call this. Something running under the surface, not feeling quite right, sea legs, like learning to ride a new bike…

From a metaphysical perspective, it is our systems adjusting to the releases and integrations it’s been through – the last few days in particular.

• presence
• breath
• fulfilling needs
• honoring soul
• maintaining neutral vibe
• body movement
• hydration

Moment to moment choosing for your highest and best good.

Do that thing, honor your needs, make choices aligned with your vision and who you are becoming.

It’s happening. Now.

You are the medicine.

7.13.2018

Heart wide open


Raw, naked, vulnerable… 

Like I was breathing in and out directly from my heart.

My tender heart sitting there wide open.

Things no longer there to protect it.

Protection that once had a purpose but, now a barrier.

I get why. And why others would do the same.

Walking around this wide open is not always met. Walls feel safe. But also keep things out.

In letting it go, there is no putting it back.

This is SO next level surrender.

As my heart is free and breathes, 
~ I am met.
~ Magic shows up.
~ Connections are deep.
~ Love is all around.

I am my medicine.

You are your medicine.

I invite you to allow the walls and armor around your heart to drop.  Open up to the magic.  It is not as scary as you’ve been told.

4.9.2018

Are your BOUNDARIES being pushed, tested, violated?


That is so much of what is happening in the energy and what is up for transmuting collectively.

Take an empowered glance for yourself at what is happening… 

Is the underlying piece about boundaries?

Yes? Why?

Because you’re being guided into the POWER paradigm. 

Therefore, anything unlike it (empowerment) will rise up.

This isn’t about shaming or blaming any part of you that played the victim. 

It is about being offered the option of where you choose to put your attention, shift a belief, build the energy.

A lot of the old paradigm is collapsing.  You’re clearing out the inner pieces you have of it.

The perpetrators are also being called forth and the bright light being shined there. 

Try this one on for size…. In the name of Radical Responsibility –

  • Everyone is playing their part (until you don’t need them to any more).
  • If someone is crossing, violating, pushing your boundaries, something is being called forth FOR YOU.
  • To be a victim, there has to be a perpetrator (you can sometimes be doing it to yourself).
  • And for there to be a perpetrator there has to be a victim.

OR NOT.

What if each party shifted their focus, did their collective healing, owned their piece of the experience and exchanges?

First, it would take Radical Responsibility to look honestly within –

:: How you’re feeling about what is happening?

:: What is being reflected back to you in life? 

:: What is your piece?

Are you playing out any victim energy? Are you the perpetrator?

This ENTIRE paradigm is collapsing. 

I am seeing  it happen in all kinds of ways.

I share this so you know what and why things are happening and how to move THROUGH them and into where you’re being led.

There is a burning off, opening up, celebrating, setting free…

And what is left is LOVE. 

And that, my friends, is what is happening…

In the story of experiences playing out in your life, where boundaries are the underlying theme, it is about you being pointed toward remembering LOVE (and all that is encompassed).

You are Love.

Be grateful (as hard as it can be sometimes) for the people and experiences guiding you to REMEMBER.

Kelly Ann

 

By the way, The Way of the Empowered Empath course is ready to be birthed.

I’m watching the energy come together and create a vortex.

If you’re meant to be a part of it you’ll feel the attraction and energetic invitation.

It’s a vibratory grid and sacred space of upleveling beyond what words could even convey.

You’ll feel it.

Once it’s typed up, I’ll post here

I’m excited to get another group going.

Message me if you’d like a direct message with the details.

In the meantime, love yo’self UP!

12.13.2017

The Wisdom in Wounds

Being misunderstood has been one of my core wounds and life challenges. I remember a time, back in elementary school when some girls told another girl I had said something mean about her. I did not say what they said and nothing I could have said would change what the second girl thought.

I secretly hope she reads this, knows it is her, and learns I never said that terrible thing. I know it really doesn’t matter but, damn – kids can be so mean.

Okay… back to my point in sharing…

This pattern of being misunderstood has carried out through my life and relationships. It is a really hard place to be in – knowing your own truth and having another not believe you annnnd think negative things about you.

Before my awareness of what this pattern was really about, I easily fell into trying to get others to hear me out and believe my truth. That is frustrating on many levels and a dead end street – with a cliff at the end. Just don’t go there.

After moving through many iterations of not being misunderstood, all the frustration, all the trying to fix outside of me, I now see all those times were really my lessons to own who I am. Own my beliefs, feelings, needs and desires – a key component in Radical Self Love.

Sure, the lessons came in some whacky, hard to deal with ways that don’t appear related. But, the outcome is the same in every instance. For me to ground into MY TRUTH.

It all led me inside – radically self loving me. Choosing me – even when where I stand is outside the ‘norm’ and not doing what is expected.

Now, as I sit inside the work I do – energy medicine, metaphysical transformation, mindset healing, shifts in consciousness, quantum leaps in reality – I know I could not bring this work, my mission into the world worried about what others think.

A step in stopping the worry about what others think boils down to (IMO): (more…)

11.7.2017

What are you fighting FOR?

This bears repeating, so pay effing attention.

I Will Not Fight For Your Limitations.

You want to chat, jam out, discuss possibilities, opportunities, and creating sh!t out of thin air – then we’ve got something to talk about.

You know there is something more within you and you’re ready to unveil it, lets talk.

You know you’re ready to move forward, be seen, and stop playing small, lets talk.

You know you have gifts, talents, and magic within and ready to explore more deeply, integrate it, and share YOU with the world, lets talk.

I will lock arms with you, forge ahead, and fight for your fullest, most authentic expression of you and your life.

But, to sink to the bottom of the ocean and hold the anchor down and waste any oxygen on why you can’t – I am not available or interested.

And neither should you.

10.6.2017

Do not let this stop you

Yes, it’s true…

You are going to piss people off, trigger them, and lose relationships because of who you are.

Do not let that stop you from fully showing up as you – in your happiness, richness, freedom, big laugh, fun personality, expressive self, talent, art, whatever the F….

It is not about you – it is about them.

What is about YOU – dimming your frigin self. Stop it. Just stop.

Shine, show up, speak up, be you…. It is what the world needs right now.

ALL OF YOU!

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