5.11.2020

Are you carrying secrets and shame that are not yours? ⁣⁣

When the robot controller becomes controlled by the robot… (hang with me here)⁣⁣
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Are you carrying secrets and shame that are not yours? ⁣⁣
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I was. ⁣⁣
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I, like many women, were conditioned to not speak up about someone else’s violation.⁣⁣

  • To not let out the secret. ⁣⁣
  • To not make them look bad. ⁣⁣
  • To not call out bad behavior. ⁣⁣
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“Remain professional. Stay positive. Don’t give in to the negative.”⁣⁣
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When the recent bad behavior didn’t stop after requesting so, I tuned in and asked: “What am I meant to do with this?”⁣⁣
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I heard – Speak up. Share. Stop hiding someone else’s violation.⁣⁣
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His bad behaviors are not mine to hide. ⁣⁣
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I’ve recently been receiving multiple harassing comments on my personal FB page, my business page, and YouTube channel from a person with a penis who could not have their way with my body two years ago. ⁣⁣
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💥 The stats are 1 in 5 women are raped in their lifetime – these are the reported cases!💥⁣⁣
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The reason many don’t report it is shame, conditioning, past trauma response, fear of further retribution…⁣⁣
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🔥 THE SHAME IS NOT YOURS. ⁣⁣
🔥 It is not your fault. ⁣⁣
🔥 “No” is a complete sentence. ⁣⁣
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THEIR bad behavior is not normal. ⁣⁣
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And you are only as sick as your secrets and shame. ⁣⁣
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Are YOU sick of carrying someone else’s shame and secrets?⁣⁣
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If so, I want you to realize – THAT is what is effecting your ability to create the life you want.⁣⁣
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It is not another verification or training you need. ⁣⁣
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You can’t hold back some parts of you without also holding back your genius, essence, message, healing, brilliance, gifts… ⁣⁣
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And you can’t hold onto someone else’s shit and expect it’s not going to make you stink. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣
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💥 I’m sharing this because I want to normalize speaking up about violation, trauma, and rape. ⁣The actions themselves have been normalized and not many are speaking up about it.⁣
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💥 I want to change the way this is handled on an individual level. ⁣⁣
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💥 I want others to understand the underlying impacts not healing or dealing with this has on your life, health, business, money, relationships. ⁣⁣
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💥 I want the generations behind me to feel safe and heard in speaking up about and calling out bad behavior. More risk factors to the perpetrators. ⁣⁣
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💥 I want people to know facing this and releasing what happened does not have to be retraumatizing – it’s already doing that to you on the regular by hiding, carrying, and holding it. ⁣⁣
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💥 I want the women who have gone through this to know they aren’t alone, the healing they require is possible, and the life they desire is available. ⁣⁣
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I wasn’t heard as a child and maybe you weren’t either. But, look at me now. My work is liberating women from trauma and into empowerment. Extracting the gifts and guiding you back into your power. ⁣⁣
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Now, I am speaking up for the child, myself, you, and for all those who have been afraid and suffering in silence.

#ITSNOTOK⁣⁣


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It’s been coming out on a macro level – Weinstein, Epstein, Cosby…⁣⁣
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The #metoo movement. ⁣⁣
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And now it’s coming out on the micro level. Your friend, your neighbor, co-worker, coach, leader…⁣⁣
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Not just those who have been violated. ⁣⁣
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The VIOLATORS. The PERPETRATORS. The RAPISTS. ⁣⁣
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They are not as far away from you as you might imagine. ⁣⁣
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In the work I do with women, it is often a case they’ve been violated, molested, traumatized and the effects of what happened are lingering. ⁣

It is the underlying cause of their current challenges of having the healing, health, and success they desire. ⁣⁣
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These women are forces to be reckoned with AND are subtly being held back from old conditioning to not speak up – not just about what happened but, using their voice now. ⁣⁣
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Old fears pop up as they attempt to move forward in any area of their life. ⁣⁣
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It’s disguised as self-sabotage, self-doubt, insecurity, not-enoughness (take another course and certification), confusion…⁣⁣
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It’s mental programming. #unfuckyourmind ⁣⁣
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Their bodies get sick or struck with pain and illness from holding this. (I used to be 100 pounds heavier)⁣⁣
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They struggle with success, making money, finding their passion, feeling safe to be who they are, excess weight, health issues, depression, anxiety, allowing the love they really want…⁣⁣
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Not because they aren’t doing the damn things. They are!⁣⁣
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It’s a struggle because old trauma and ‘keep your mouth shut’ conditioning is lodged in their memories, subconscious, energy field, and body – it operates on autopilot. ⁣⁣
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These strong women have learned how to manage all they’ve gone through and what they took on that is not theirs. ⁣⁣
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These are some of the most talented, gifted, powerhouse fierce women around! They’ve been successful but, it’s been harder than it has to be. ⁣⁣
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Managing what is under the surface and what is not theirs to carry is no longer possible. It’s effecting what they really want to accomplish and create for their lives. ⁣⁣
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The required change is not about “staying positive”. ⁣⁣
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Change requires truth. ⁣⁣
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What happened is NOT POSITIVE and it’s about time the bad behavior is called out on the perpetrator and women stop taking on the shame and blame. ⁣⁣
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It’s not yours. ⁣⁣
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It’s not ok. ⁣⁣
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So, this guy who couldn’t have power over my body, has recently returned.⁣⁣
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His mission is to be famous. He had told me how he uses computer bots to share his videos, like his posts, leave comments on his pages – he BOUGHT his followers. Fake numbers for the robot himself.⁣
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As a return on his investment of spamming my social media pages, let’s help make him famous. Yeah?⁣⁣
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His name is Brad Lenart. He is a “Motivational Speaker”⁣⁣
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💥 He attempted to violate my body after I said NO several times. ⁣⁣
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💥 I called him out on his bad behavior and he responded “you’re jealous”.⁣⁣
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💥 I cut off and blocked all communication lines. ⁣⁣
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Now, 2 years later, in the midst of this shutdown, he found a way to message me – ‘the things from the past were because he was “a victim to ambien”.’⁣⁣
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When I did respond and asked him to stop, the harassing bots started showing up leaving comments on all my social media platforms. ⁣⁣
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💥 I said at the start of this quarantine (go to my videos) that what has been buried under the surface is going to start coming up. ⁣⁣
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When violators come back at you, their inner shame is coming up and they’re attempting to shake it off them like a big, hairy, ugly spider and put it on you. As well as try to pull you in. ⁣⁣
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Don’t get pulled in. ⁣⁣
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Call it out from the start. ⁣⁣
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Take your power back. Use your voice. Get support. ⁣⁣
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Their behavior is not ok. ⁣How you feel is ok.⁣
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P.S. I am ok. I’m great, actually. ⁣⁣
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This quarantine and lack of distractions is clearly making him face himself. ⁣⁣
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He tried to pull me in and manipulate me to believe he, himself, was a victim. ⁣⁣
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He’s got a weak mind that has been taken over and now he IS the AI bot. ⁣⁣
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He tried to distract me. He couldn’t have my body, so he’s reaching for my energy. ⁣⁣
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Nope. ⁣⁣
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So, “How is this FOR ME?” ⁣⁣
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For me, this was clearly an invitation to do something different. To recognize where I was still operating from holding someone else’s shame and secrets. To stop holding myself back and set ALL of me free. ⁣⁣
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#chaosalchemy ThankYouVeryMuch⁣⁣

#imdone ⁣⁣

#shamenomore

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