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What is Make Big Magic?

I recorded a video explaining a bit more about Make Big Magic.

(even if you’re not ready for 1:1 mentoring, this video is a transmission in itself.)  

I invite you to take a chance on yourself.  A chance to give yourself an opportunity to succeed, to pivot, to live your passion, share your art, message, healing.

Identifying the subconscious beliefs, fears, and energy overwhelming your system is my specialty. 

I invite you to explore how my superpowers can support you in bridging the gap from where you are now to where you want to be.

That bridge is the Make Big Magic mentorship.  

This private mentorship (application only)

This is a high touch, full support, and customized mentorship.  I keep the number of clients I work with at one time limited.

Your readiness is a key requirement. 

Hell YES apply here.


An Invitation

Do you find it challenging to recognize what is stopping you from taking the steps to live your passion but, you know something is in the way?

Do you know it is time to pivot your life but, become overwhelmed and confused keeping you stagnant in making a choice?

Do you know you’re meant to head down a different path but, feel frozen with fear?

Recognizing the underlying operating system is key in having the awareness of what choice and change are necessary for you to make to have the experiences you say you want.

The way to is through.  The way through is in.

In you.  

It is all within you. 

What voices are streaming within you? 

How much of your thought process goes to –
– what could go wrong
– how you could fail
– afraid of what others might think
– you don’t have the time, money, permission… ?

A shift in your subconscious mind (#unfuckyourmind) and a reset of your nervous system can create an immediate shift in your experiences.

First, you have to CHOOSE from beyond the mindset that brought you to the place you are in now. 

Choose to create your own magic.


Does Self-doubt, fear, confusion, overwhelm stop you?

Go deeper…


What is really stopping you?

Does self-doubt stop you?

Does fear keep you from choosing?

Is your mind a cobweb of confusion?

Go deeper.

If you keep hitting up against glass ceilings, can’t get out of your own way, repeating patterns you can’t get past, it is not about the actions you are or are not taking.

It is about unresolved emotions and trapped trauma in your body and nervous system.

So, when you introduce a new idea, a new path to follow, to do something different, to go outside your comfort zone… it will trigger your nervous system into overload.

From there your nervous system alerts you with thoughts of self-doubt, fear, confusion… Anything to stop you from doing the thing your system senses as dangerous. 

Excuses, stories, reasons to not to do the thing you want because it’s your nervous system that can’t handle it. 

In my work with clients, I identify the overload, the core of the fears, the point where trauma became stuck.

Then clear, heal, release the overload, and reset the system at the core of its communication center.

From there, you have more energy, inspiration, motivation, clarity, strength, and make empowered choices that match what you say you want.

What part of you is making your choices for you now?


Your energy and attention on you will pay off.

“Kelly Ann! Other people are SEEING the difference in me!!” – client celebratory message this morning. ⁣🥳⁣
She found me because she was looking for someone to help her with her MINDSET. ⁣⁣
✴️ For the last couple of YEARS she’s been weighed down by ANXIETY and HEAVY, negative thoughts. ⁣⁣
✴️ She’s gained 50 pounds. ⁣⁣
✴️ She wanted to feel more empowered and to stop fighting with what was going on internally. ⁣⁣
✴️ How she felt has impacted her relationships with her spouse, friends and family. ⁣⁣
✴️ She wanted to stop shutting down her own voice. ⁣⁣
✴️ She wanted to lose weight but, her inability to handle stress and fears had her continually giving up on herself. ⁣⁣
✴️ She felt an empty space inside, something was missing, and deep depression. ⁣⁣
👁 Through my process, I psychically identify the core pains, limiting patterns, and subconscious fears manifesting all the discord and disruption in her life.⁣⁣
When that ⬆️ is cleared (I call it “clutter”), there is space, freedom, and access to create and allow the goals and desires to materialize into ones reality. ⁣⁣
The clearing doesn’t take long and conscious creation occurs immediately.⁣⁣
💚 We’re only halfway through (6 weeks) and she already has -⁣⁣
🎯 cleared away the mindfuckery and no longer “always thinking”, ⁣⁣
🎯 has inner peace and feels strong within,⁣⁣
🎯 anxiety decreased significantly, ⁣⁣
🎯 healed and resolved deep wounds she’s never addressed with anyone before,⁣⁣
❤️ deepened the relationship with her partner⁣⁣
❤️ is accessing her power and consciously creating intended experiences,⁣⁣
❤️ speaking up more freely and confidently, ⁣⁣
has a feeling of fullness more often,⁣⁣
✨ no longer controlled by food – guilt, judgment, self hate,⁣⁣
✨ broke a life long survival pattern of behavior (that was disruptive to all her relationships),⁣⁣
✨ no longer obsessing about self image…⁣⁣
💖 She’s happier, lighter, experiencing more pleasure, and “things are falling into my lap”.⁣⁣
She knew something HAD TO change. That choice led her to me. Her continued choices have allowed the changes she desired to materialize. ⁣⁣
#unfuckyourmind #setyourselffree⁣⁣
Do you want help identifying your subconscious beliefs, limiting patterns, and fears? ⁣

Are you ready to flip the switch on your creative abilities and empowerment and finally start allowing the changes you desire? ⁣

If so, here is a link for my private 12 week mentorship. ⁣⁣⁣
It’s easier than you might think, funner than you imagine, and most of all… the simplest ways to create lasting results. ⁣


When you’re ready for a breakthrough…

We are in some intense energy waves and upgrades.  Some will feel it more than others.  Some are not going where you are headed.

If you are feeling it, you are being invited to head deeper and further into what you are feeling.

What has not been healed or resolved is going to come to the surface.

For some, this will be painful past experiences you’ve created strong mechanisms against feeling the pain.

But, you can’t take it with you any longer – at least not to where you say you want to be.

You can’t take the pain nor the automated squashing down mechanisms.

So, how do you work with what comes up?

:: Be present with what you feel.
:: Become aware of any automatic mechanism that stops your feelings from rising up.
:: Be present to the sensations in your body.
:: Don’t try to change anything or make what you are feeling wrong.
:: Breathe as you’re being aware of what is happening in your body.
:: If you’ve become aware about a buried belief about yourself or life, be present to that and notice what it feels like in your body.

It is way less painful to go through the temporary discomfort than it is to keep managing these past pains, limiting patterns, and old traumas.

Take the chances as they come!  It is the invitation from your Higher Self.

On the other side of this process and through the healing is what you have been seeking and asking for – 

  • the clarity
  • confidence
  • guidance
  • courage
  • inner peace
  • empowerment
  • creativity

The physical manifestations – 
– money,
– partner,
– healed / healthy body,
– soulmate clients,
– opportunities…
All these come from a solid foundation in you.

You are a part of birthing a New Earth.

What is rising up for tilling and clearing does not resonate with the new energy. 

It has to go.  If it is rising up, you are ready. 


P.S. If you want help identifying and clearing your subconscious beliefs and fears and flip the switch on your creative abilities and empowerment, message me to discuss working together in my private 12-week mentorship. ⁣

In this private course, I work with you 1:1 and psychically identify the blocks and barriers you keep hitting up against keeping you from achieving the results you desire. Results in health, relationship, business, money… ⁣

Once core blocks are removed you tap into your creative powers and learn to work with your energy to create and materialize the experiences and feelings you desire. ⁣⁣
It’ll be easier than you think, funner than you imagine, and most of all… the simplest ways to create lasting results.

It is a great fit for Sensitive Leaders, Empathic Entrepreneurs, and Conscious Creators.

Your readiness is a key requirement. 

Fear may still be there – that is only your limitations not wanting to be annihilated. 


Are you carrying secrets and shame that are not yours? ⁣⁣

When the robot controller becomes controlled by the robot… (hang with me here)⁣⁣
Are you carrying secrets and shame that are not yours? ⁣⁣
I was. ⁣⁣
I, like many women, were conditioned to not speak up about someone else’s violation.⁣⁣

  • To not let out the secret. ⁣⁣
  • To not make them look bad. ⁣⁣
  • To not call out bad behavior. ⁣⁣

“Remain professional. Stay positive. Don’t give in to the negative.”⁣⁣
🔥 ⁣⁣

When the recent bad behavior didn’t stop after requesting so, I tuned in and asked: “What am I meant to do with this?”⁣⁣
I heard – Speak up. Share. Stop hiding someone else’s violation.⁣⁣
His bad behaviors are not mine to hide. ⁣⁣
I’ve recently been receiving multiple harassing comments on my personal FB page, my business page, and YouTube channel from a person with a penis who could not have their way with my body two years ago. ⁣⁣
💥 The stats are 1 in 5 women are raped in their lifetime – these are the reported cases!💥⁣⁣
The reason many don’t report it is shame, conditioning, past trauma response, fear of further retribution…⁣⁣
🔥 It is not your fault. ⁣⁣
🔥 “No” is a complete sentence. ⁣⁣
THEIR bad behavior is not normal. ⁣⁣
And you are only as sick as your secrets and shame. ⁣⁣
Are YOU sick of carrying someone else’s shame and secrets?⁣⁣
If so, I want you to realize – THAT is what is effecting your ability to create the life you want.⁣⁣
It is not another verification or training you need. ⁣⁣
You can’t hold back some parts of you without also holding back your genius, essence, message, healing, brilliance, gifts… ⁣⁣
And you can’t hold onto someone else’s shit and expect it’s not going to make you stink. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣

💥 I’m sharing this because I want to normalize speaking up about violation, trauma, and rape. ⁣The actions themselves have been normalized and not many are speaking up about it.⁣
💥 I want to change the way this is handled on an individual level. ⁣⁣
💥 I want others to understand the underlying impacts not healing or dealing with this has on your life, health, business, money, relationships. ⁣⁣
💥 I want the generations behind me to feel safe and heard in speaking up about and calling out bad behavior. More risk factors to the perpetrators. ⁣⁣
💥 I want people to know facing this and releasing what happened does not have to be retraumatizing – it’s already doing that to you on the regular by hiding, carrying, and holding it. ⁣⁣
💥 I want the women who have gone through this to know they aren’t alone, the healing they require is possible, and the life they desire is available. ⁣⁣
I wasn’t heard as a child and maybe you weren’t either. But, look at me now. My work is liberating women from trauma and into empowerment. Extracting the gifts and guiding you back into your power. ⁣⁣
Now, I am speaking up for the child, myself, you, and for all those who have been afraid and suffering in silence.


It’s been coming out on a macro level – Weinstein, Epstein, Cosby…⁣⁣
The #metoo movement. ⁣⁣
And now it’s coming out on the micro level. Your friend, your neighbor, co-worker, coach, leader…⁣⁣
Not just those who have been violated. ⁣⁣
They are not as far away from you as you might imagine. ⁣⁣
In the work I do with women, it is often a case they’ve been violated, molested, traumatized and the effects of what happened are lingering. ⁣

It is the underlying cause of their current challenges of having the healing, health, and success they desire. ⁣⁣
These women are forces to be reckoned with AND are subtly being held back from old conditioning to not speak up – not just about what happened but, using their voice now. ⁣⁣
Old fears pop up as they attempt to move forward in any area of their life. ⁣⁣
It’s disguised as self-sabotage, self-doubt, insecurity, not-enoughness (take another course and certification), confusion…⁣⁣
It’s mental programming. #unfuckyourmind ⁣⁣
Their bodies get sick or struck with pain and illness from holding this. (I used to be 100 pounds heavier)⁣⁣
They struggle with success, making money, finding their passion, feeling safe to be who they are, excess weight, health issues, depression, anxiety, allowing the love they really want…⁣⁣
Not because they aren’t doing the damn things. They are!⁣⁣
It’s a struggle because old trauma and ‘keep your mouth shut’ conditioning is lodged in their memories, subconscious, energy field, and body – it operates on autopilot. ⁣⁣
These strong women have learned how to manage all they’ve gone through and what they took on that is not theirs. ⁣⁣
These are some of the most talented, gifted, powerhouse fierce women around! They’ve been successful but, it’s been harder than it has to be. ⁣⁣
Managing what is under the surface and what is not theirs to carry is no longer possible. It’s effecting what they really want to accomplish and create for their lives. ⁣⁣
The required change is not about “staying positive”. ⁣⁣
Change requires truth. ⁣⁣
What happened is NOT POSITIVE and it’s about time the bad behavior is called out on the perpetrator and women stop taking on the shame and blame. ⁣⁣
It’s not yours. ⁣⁣
It’s not ok. ⁣⁣
🔥 ⁣⁣
So, this guy who couldn’t have power over my body, has recently returned.⁣⁣
His mission is to be famous. He had told me how he uses computer bots to share his videos, like his posts, leave comments on his pages – he BOUGHT his followers. Fake numbers for the robot himself.⁣
As a return on his investment of spamming my social media pages, let’s help make him famous. Yeah?⁣⁣
His name is Brad Lenart. He is a “Motivational Speaker”⁣⁣
💥 He attempted to violate my body after I said NO several times. ⁣⁣
💥 I called him out on his bad behavior and he responded “you’re jealous”.⁣⁣
💥 I cut off and blocked all communication lines. ⁣⁣
Now, 2 years later, in the midst of this shutdown, he found a way to message me – ‘the things from the past were because he was “a victim to ambien”.’⁣⁣
When I did respond and asked him to stop, the harassing bots started showing up leaving comments on all my social media platforms. ⁣⁣
💥 I said at the start of this quarantine (go to my videos) that what has been buried under the surface is going to start coming up. ⁣⁣
🔥 ⁣⁣
When violators come back at you, their inner shame is coming up and they’re attempting to shake it off them like a big, hairy, ugly spider and put it on you. As well as try to pull you in. ⁣⁣
Don’t get pulled in. ⁣⁣
Call it out from the start. ⁣⁣
Take your power back. Use your voice. Get support. ⁣⁣
Their behavior is not ok. ⁣How you feel is ok.⁣
P.S. I am ok. I’m great, actually. ⁣⁣
This quarantine and lack of distractions is clearly making him face himself. ⁣⁣
He tried to pull me in and manipulate me to believe he, himself, was a victim. ⁣⁣
He’s got a weak mind that has been taken over and now he IS the AI bot. ⁣⁣
He tried to distract me. He couldn’t have my body, so he’s reaching for my energy. ⁣⁣
Nope. ⁣⁣
So, “How is this FOR ME?” ⁣⁣
For me, this was clearly an invitation to do something different. To recognize where I was still operating from holding someone else’s shame and secrets. To stop holding myself back and set ALL of me free. ⁣⁣

#chaosalchemy ThankYouVeryMuch⁣⁣

#imdone ⁣⁣



When things feel intense…

Does it feel intense? Energies, upgrades, and integration can feel that way. ⁣

When you’re feeling it, don’t make yourself wrong or bad for doing different or strange things that help you ground the energy. ⁣

You become more energy sensitive as you clear away past pains, traumas and fears.⁣

In the cleared space, the essence of who you are begins to integrates into your human.⁣

The integration processes can feel uncomfortable and confusing. ⁣

This is where many stop. ⁣

Don’t. Keep going. ⁣

Learn to work with the discomfort, confusion, and what is happening in your body and life. ⁣

The integration process can be like walking, riding a bike, or skiing for the first time… a little clumsy, awkward, uncomfortable, scary.⁣

The process requires you to #unfuckyourmind and drop into deep trust of yourself and life. ⁣

This is how and where you break patterns and get out of cycles. Your choices. ⁣

Choices to keep going – into and through the uncomfortable spaces. ⁣

A requirement to move forward in your life⁣
is that you no longer operate and choose from fear, pain, trauma…⁣

With that said, this stuff will likely come up through your process. ⁣

Don’t stop there. ⁣

The integration journey will feel like the scariest thing you do and will bring the most amazing, awe inspiring rewards. ⁣

Where you are headed… the cluttered mind is going to become more cumbersome.⁣

The next wave of leaders are being called forth. ⁣

Your journey has been the initiation. ⁣

New world. New ways. ⁣

Are you ready to get out of the way?


When discomfort arises…

What has not been healed or is left unresolved is going to come to the surface as you choose to move beyond your current experiences.⁣

As you move beyond to -⁣
:: launch your business, share your art, healing or message, ⁣
:: open your heart to love & relationship,⁣
:: allow more money to come in,⁣
:: be healthier – in mind and body…⁣

As you move beyond your status quo and into your next experience, what has held you in the comfort of the old will rise up.⁣

– The strong mechanisms you created to protect yourself against feeling pain will pop up. ⁣

– The subconscious behaviors that keep you ‘safe’ automatically operate. ⁣

– The buried beliefs about your worthiness and enoughness speak to you and stop you.⁣

Don’t stop at the discomfort. ⁣

DIVE IN. It is where the pattern and energy is transformed.⁣

Through the other side is what you seek.


Are you having a hard time trying to hold it all together?

Are you afraid one slip and you’ll lose yourself and won’t recover?⁣

I get it. It’s a scary, dark, unknown space and process you can’t control. ⁣

It’s like a birthing a baby. ⁣

Except you really can’t stop a baby from coming through. ⁣

When you try and stop your own birthing, losing, and shedding process, it becomes more challenging to manage. ⁣

What’s really happening is -⁣
– these internal mechanisms you’ve created to feel safe, ⁣
– the beLIEfs that keep you limited, ⁣
– the old traumas, pains, betrayal keeping you trapped, ⁣
– the patterns keeping you small…⁣
…must be lost and shed for the new to birth through. ⁣

You’ve asked for more and better in your life. ⁣

The next version of you is birthing through. ⁣

It can feel raw and vulnerable. ⁣

Your sensitivities heighten, you feel more, you see more, hard truths unveiled…⁣

Breath through it. ⁣
Move your body. ⁣
Surrender. ⁣

Your next level Big Magic is birthing through you.

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