Is unresolved trauma the block and barrier?

If there is unresolved trauma operating in the background of your nervous system, all your ‘doing the damn thing’ won’t create the results you are working so hard to achieve. 

It doesn’t matter if it’s a relationship, money, more clients…when there is unresolved trauma, an inner survival program operates by default and automatically swats away what you’ve been calling into your life.

Because on some level, having it does not feel safe. 

  • You don’t want to be judged for you choices. 
  • You don’t want others to feel bad when they see how happy, healthy, free, in love you are. 
  • You don’t want to be abandoned for expressing thoughts and feelings different than others around you. 
  • You want to belong and feel safe being you.

If you’re struggling, you’re holding onto something within you that’s not true and you’re choosing behaviors to protect it. 

The struggle and solution are within you. 

When I weighed 100 pounds more than I do now, I would lose weight and gain it right back. 

Lose 20, gain 30. Lose 15, gain 20. It went on for years. Until…

Until I got to the core of what was happening in the background. 

There were aspects of myself preventing me from keeping the weight off. Split aspects I developed early on as a way of survival and safety.

A subconscious condition to keep extra weight on as a form creating space between myself and others.  

As an Empath I could feel what people were thinking. It wasn’t always kind or safe. 

  • Inner conflict was created – which cracked my self trust – when they’d be saying something different than what I was feeling. And no one believed me. 
  • I was intuitive, empathic, psychic and energy sensitive but, shut it down early on.  

Later, after I lost and kept off the weight, I realized I had kept the extra weight on to protect myself from unwanted sexual advancements or attention.  

I wanted to shield myself and from what was happening energetically. 

So, anytime I would do anything that might dismantle the protection of extra weight, the aspects would kick in and sabotage my efforts. 

Once I identified and healed what was underlying,

I kept the weight off and stepped off the rollercoaster of weight gain and loss. 

Are you feeling like you’re pushing a boulder up a hill to have more and experience more of life? 

Do you sense there might be inner aspects in your background, operating against your efforts? 

Take a look back… when did chaos, drama erupt in your life? 

Was it right when or just before you took a step toward something you want?


  • When you start to put yourself into the dating world, 
  • When you take steps to share your art, message, healing,
  • When you look into hiring the coach, mentor or healer,
  • When you start to put yourself into the dating world, 
  • When you start a new health routine,

…When you move toward creating a shift in your life that threatens an aspect of survival, it will create chaos, drama, self-sabotage… 

Experiences will occur to distract you (and keep the comfort zone cozy).
– car broke down, purse stolen, ex pops into your life, water heater breaks, fight with your partner…

You’ll hear all the reasons you can’t do the thing – no money, no time, it’s not the right time, it won’t work…

This is where your awareness is key and choice is your superpower.

Are you going to allow the distractions to deter you from where you were headed? 

The distractions and circumstances are choice points.  

How committed are you to yourself?

Quitting is a pattern. A survival mechanism. An inner aspect of you afraid it’s going to be harmed. 

It’s really just miswired and misfiring of your internal mechanisms.  An old operating system that once served you and is now working against you. 

You can identify the old system, extract the gifts from it (yes! there are gifts to these aspects of you), and rewire your operating system to be working with you, not against you. 

Could there be inner aspects of you operating to keep you safe?

And also away from what you want for yourself and life?


Ascension is the journey

5D is not a destination. It is a frequency, a state of consciousness. You are creating New Earth right here, right now.

Everything that is happening is pointing you back to your empowerment and to remember the SuperHuman you are.

3D is not a place you escape or get out of. It is a frequency and consciousness you transcend through your choices.


When you feel stuck, afraid, and can’t make the change…

Do you feel stuck, immobilized, afraid, creativity blocked?

Do you want to know what is really underneath your fear of doing the thing you want to do?

Things you’re afraid to do such as…

:: Share your message, art, healing but, you’ve changed so, who you’re sharing with will change.

: Pursue a relationship but, you’ve been hurt and heartbroken before.

:: Make an investment in the healer, coach, course, travel but, you’re telling yourself you don’t have the money.

:: Implement changes that would support your health (mind is a BIG piece here) but, you’ve failed so many times before.

Your mind is so focused on what can go wrong, you aren’t open or AVAILABLE to hear all the possibilities of what could go RIGHT.

Focusing on what could go wrong is your mind’s way of protecting your inner wounds.

Your choice to pursue what you really desire threatens the protection you’ve built to keep yourself from being rewounded. 

So, all the actions you’re taking or not taking will thwart the results you seek because of the underlying fears.

Think self-sabotage, procrastination, distractions, drama, chaos…

So, what do you do to clear what’s happening underneath?

Heal the fears, clear the energy, integrate the wisdom from the past pain and then…

– clarity arises,
– self-trust strengthens,
– barriers dissolved,
– your energy amps up,
– creativity flows,
– your hot factor ignites,
– your vibe is lit!

When you heal and clear what is underneath, behind the scenes, and what is really holding you back, you’ll feel free to be all of you and magnetize to you what matches your vibe.

You’re doing this already – magnetizing.

So, if what you’re experiencing doesn’t feel good, it’s about what’s happening inside you.

No outer action can change that.  You’ve got to go in.


When you freeze at taking the next step –

– parts within you that are fearful, limited, self-doubting, and insecure will rise up and revolt.

Revolt against participating in anything that will bring you beyond your comfort zone.

These inner parts will revolt by creating drama, chaos, distraction.

Once you’ve made a choice to participate in an activity that will bring you beyond your comfort zone you might hear stories and excuses as to “I don’t have the money, it’s not the right time, I’m too busy…”

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At one point, these shadow aspects were created for your survival. But, they’re actually keeping you from what you want.

So, as you take action towards going beyond your comfort zone, the stories, drama, and excuses will kick up to divert you.

Your awareness of this is your power to make choices that support the life and person you say you want to be.

Integrate these aspects and you’ll discover they hold gifts for you as well.


In-Person Workshop: Shadow Integration & Alchemical Activation 11/9/19

We are in shadow season; Scorpio season – where what has been under the surface rises up.

As above, so below.

What’s rising are denied aspects of yourself. Denied through pain, trauma, fear, betrayal – from others, from yourself.

At some point, denying these aspects was for your survival, to remain belonging.

In denying these aspects, you also deny your innate gifts, wild genius, power, insight, wisdom…

When you deny parts of yourself, it becomes more challenging to attract the experiences you desire… love, money, business, health, freedom, expression, inner peace, bliss, joy…

Here is a video I did on this topic – it will give you a good idea of what this workshop is about.

In this experiential workshop, you’ll be guided to connect with the denied aspect; a shadow aspect of yourself that is ready and waiting for you to integrate into your being.

Upon shadow integration, you’ll channel your very own, unique alchemical activation to use for your healing, expansion, ascension, creation…

Whether it be an inner child, a broken heart, a survival pattern, misguided fear, without integration these aspects cause all kinds of chaos and challenge – essentially working against your highest desires.

Join us in this workshop and learn the process of shadow integration and alchemical activations to use in your life’s journey.

When: Saturday, November 9, 2019
Time: 1:00 – 3:00 pm EST
Where: 33 N Main St Suite D, Wallingford, CT 06492
Investment: $25 pre-pay to reserve your space
Venmo = @kellyann-matuskiewicz
Bring: Your journal, something to write in and with

Optional: totem to charge with your energy and activation – jewelry, crystal, piece of clothing…


Are you in your own way?


Why you are not selling

In this replay from a Facebook Live, I share about –

“Why your intangible (coaching, healing, readings) products aren’t selling.

Chocolate Chip Cookies and Energy Healing, Mindset Coaching, Magic Mentorship, Tarot and Other Readings…”

Hint: It is not by creating something new.

It’s all within YOU.

I share key points in how to get out of the way and let yourself be seen, recognized, and reimbursed for your art, healing, message – Wild Genius and Gifts that come natural and easy to you.

Thanks for watching, commenting, and sharing. I love hearing from you.

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Thanks again!
Kelly Ann


When manifesting is hard

When manifesting is hard…

What do you want to manifest? Love, money, clients…?

Manifesting feels hard and isn’t working because it is not about ‘making something happen’; it is about ALLOWING it.

Allowing yourself to RECEIVE the Love, Money, Clients…

So you can –

– have the romantic partner who sees you, knows you, honors you.

– share your art, message, healing freely and with confidence.

– have the experiences money will allow.

What prevents you from allowing and receiving is an unfounded shame, guilt, fear, betrayal, heartbreak…

Those are just some of the invisible, subconscious barriers and walls you keep up to prevent the same past pain from happening again.

But, those same invisible barriers and walls also keep out what you’re desiring to manifest.

Manifesting is not an outward focus, it is an inner focus.

Clear the barriers and walls (while remaining empowered) and what is meant for you comes with ease.

The barriers and walls are within, not outside of you.  They manifest there for you to SEE what is happening inside.


When everything you’ve tried hasn’t worked…

This transmission came through strong as I was walking into the gym today… FEEL it as you listen.

It came through strong as I was walking into the gym today… FEEL it as you listen.

The change you seek happens from beyond your mind. And, from no longer seeking outside of you.

I’d love to hear what you received from this


Are your choices being led by your wounds or your wisdom?

WOUNDS will have you choose outcomes that are comfortable and familiar (to your personality and ego).

WISDOM will guide you to choices where outcomes are unknown, unfamiliar, and frightening (to your limitations).

CHOICE is your Super Power.

When you continue to make the same choices, you’ll continue to experience the same outcomes.

You can break the pain patterns and subconscious cycles by making choices that go beyond the known and comfortable.

Are you trusting your wisdom or your wounds?

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